ignatius.I hate myself.

2009-05-19T00:17:00.000+08:00

CHRISTINE CHIA. GO TO BED.

2009-05-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

TAN WEI WEN!

zzzzzzz. i wanna BOX you lah.

stop reading this! im a happy boy. go and find the HOT BODY GIRL who loves PORK BANMIAN.

2008-09-17T00:51:00.003+08:00

this is totally gonna be a random post in the middle of the night but oh wells. i like being random. haha ><

anyways, in life, there really isn't such thing as the BEST thing you can ever get. don't you all agree with it ? how sure are you that what you actually have is what you really much wanted ? what you normally have and feel contented with is normally the nxt best thing. man tends to look for alternatives to substitute what they cannot attain and then think that hey, this is actually better. but deep down inside, its actually not true. man just naturally force themselves to accept that as cold, hard concrete fact. thats just life.

things dont always work out the way they seems. people tend to think too much. or rather, some people tend to think too much into little minor things. minor little details and actions may seem very insignificant to one but they may mean alot to another. one must not underestimate how much these little things matter. for instance, a little insignificant action to one such as a lil card for one may actually be something really meaningful to the other party. or we look at things in another perspective. when one party does not do these particular minor stuffs to the other party, it actually affects them alot. so we shouldnt underestimate how much these things actually is to each and every individual person. it really MATTERS ALOT .

to some, taking a stroll by the beach, sitting down listening to music , looking at how the rain falls may be something that they can be very contented in doing. but it can actually be in fact, a waste of time to another. they prefer doing more vigorous stuffs as a form of enjoyment. but hey, every individual as different viewpoints in looking at things. its not right/fair to judge people just by that preference. man should learn to adapt.

jealousy is also a major part of a man's life. jealousy can cause friendships to sour, relationships to break apart, family bonds to vanish into thin air. jealousy can also cause people to turn from bad to good. however, jealousy can also cause ppl to work harder in a way that , they feel that they dont wanna lose out . it's a very subjective way to view it. but no matter waht, jealousy can always be kept in check and in place if one just knows how to. most of the time, jealousy occurs by the act of thinking to much into the little things that someone does. honestly, i feel that one shld just ignore or put on a mask to hide these feelings. block them away and shun them. perhaps this might make you feel better or something? well, it depends.

contentment is also something that people seek in life. man always finds things that makes them feel better, happier and more at ease. such forms of contenment varies from person to person. some prefers large scale items while a little thing can really make their day. its something that every person is always constantly for a look out for. perhaps tahts what life is ? perhaps this is all part of living ? or maybe its just the spur and motivation for us to carry on in life ? who knows .

okay. enough with this random rantings. im off.

2008-09-10T21:28:00.004+08:00

lately, sleepless nights have been taking you over.
no matter how hard you try,
your eyes just refuses to close.
you lay still and silent on your bed.
staring at the cold blank ceiling.
thoughts starts filling up your head.
sad, joyful, remorse, happiness.
hurt, laughter, pain, contentment.
everything that happened thus far lays before you.
you take a look at how your life has been so far,
and realise, things have starting to piece out nicely.
you're amazed at how nice and perfect the pieces fit together.
" how could someone like me actually experience happiness ? "
that solemn thought runs through your mind.
you stop and pause for a moment,
and had the sudden realization.
" do i really derserve it ?"
" she definitely deserves much better than this "
Thats the final conclusion you had.

Before you know it, dawn is breaking.
climbing out of bed,
you think through bout the night before.
" is it too good to be through that she's actually right before me ? "
you leave your home and face the world with a mask,
a mask that hides what you really feel inside.
but whenever you see her, all these fades away.
nothing seems to be significant to you, nothing except her.
that feeling of being blessed.
love.
thats what it actually is.
but when you're all alone again,
you know you cant deceive yourself.
cause no matter what,
' she definitely deserves much better than this "

2008-09-08T22:24:00.003+08:00

I Just Want You

There's something i gotta say to you,
But i'm so afraid of what you'll do.
ohh~

I'll just admit this to you now,
That i'm stuck on you like glue somehow.
ohh~

Don't wanna feel so cold inside,
I wanna feel the warmth that i feel with you all the time..
Surrounding me just like the wind.
Cause you're the one who makes me sing.

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I wanna go out with you tonight,
A picnic with candlelight.
I might just hold you tight.

Tell me you wanna be my queen,
If not it's okay, a princess seems just my type,
I promise i'll be there tonight.
I'll keep you warm in winter's white.
And in the summer, walks on beach sound nice.
I want you now to talk with on the phone for hours at a time.
Baby, i just want you to be mine all mine..

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I wanna be your valentine, your christmas wish, your pickup line.
I wanna be the one who knows about your friends and foes and the TV shows you love.
Look above the stars spell out your name with an exclamation point,
Cause at the end of the day, you're the one who makes me say..

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I Just Want You~

2008-07-29T21:28:00.002+08:00

The feeling of emptiness envelops me all of the sudden.
That cold, dark , merciless feeling. it hurts.
No matter how much pain you undergo,
No matter how much you tear,
it wont go away.
the feeling of loneliness stays..

sometimes you have the sudden urge to cry,
sometimes that sudden burst of laughter.
smiles and giggles lifts your spirits up almost instantly.
and yet, all this disappears in just a flash..
sadness flows in and overcome your out of the blue.
everything that you feel inside starts to leave you.
Empty. Cold. Pain.
these are the emotions that will walk you through your days..

but what if one day you could change your fate?
what if one day you're given paths to choose from ?
to decide between happines and sadness.
to choose to laugh or perhaps to cry.
what would your decision be ?
how long are you willing to wait for that day ?
will it be worth it ?

what if an angel appears before you.
promising to remove all your pain, sufferings,
all you tears and fears.
never again will you have to worry bout them again.
would you do it ?
would it be worth it ?
how long will you have to wait for the angel to descend ?
or rather, what if that day never arrives ?

perhaps, you've found that someone along the way.
to be your guardian, to be your angel.
someone whom you know you are willing to give your all to.
and yet, wish for nothing in return except for a smile on her face.
will you care for her ? cry with her ?
laugh with her and stand by her ?
say yes you will only if you really mean it.
say it cause you know you can keep to your promise..

sometimes you take a slow stroll and you stop to look at the sky.
you see her face right before your eyes.
the feeling inside, that of being blessed.
the wind starts blowing, a smile starts to emerge..
yet when it dies down, you heave a great sigh.
are you really worthy of her ?
do you really think you deserve her ?
these questions flash through your mind.
and somehow you know, deep down inside.
that whatever the answer you think it maybe, well, its all just a lie...

2008-07-22T22:17:00.002+08:00

sometimes it hurts not knowing how much you care.
sometimes not knowing anything at all seems to be the best way out.
it hurts so bad when thing don't always work out the way it seems.
perhaps it's not destined.
perhaps fate does not allow us to be together.
what if we never knew each other at all ?
what if we are relocated to the ends of the Earth ?
will it allow us to let our hearts yearn for each other ?
or rather, will you even think of me at all.... ?

what if one day i happen to perish from the face of Earth.
will you cry cause you've lost a friend ?
or will you cry cause you'll never show how much you care ?
if the world were to come to an end real soon,
what will be the last few things you would wanna do ?
will i be part of it ?
or will i just be casted away into the bin and never to return again ?
will i even mean anything... ?

what if we were in a room and i start to walk out of the door.
will you let my back be the last thing you see ?
or will you pull me back and tell me how much i mean to you ?
perhaps i might just walk out of your life
never to look back, never to cry.
will you even seek for me at all?
or just accept fact and forget us all... ?

maybe one day we'll meet up again.
not with a smile, but with major heartaches.
but deep down inside, there's an urge to know.
how you felt about me then and perhaps even now.
was there a place left for me ?
what if i had just perservered on,
will there be a happy ending?
or just another heartbreaking moment.... ?

slowly but surely, my heart starts to wonder.
slowly but surely, it starts to beat faster.
is it due to your presence around me ?
or is it due to the the awkwardness we face?
sometimes i really wish to hold you in my arms.
to shield your from darkness,
to shield you from harm.
but much as i know that it's not gonna happen,
im always hoping for a small sign,
just a little sign that will give me the strength and resolve to pull through whatever...

2008-04-16T20:25:00.003+08:00

okayyyyyyyy. im back already. after MIA-ing for so long. haha . finally got the time to blog today! or rather, nothing to do, didnt KO after training so here i am . lol

anyway , Been in Jc for quite some time alr? bleh . totally regretted my decision but oh wells, live with it. School's great? NOT. homework never ends, lectures are never interesting. surprisingly, tutorials seem more interesting to me. :O weird. whatever. bleh . let's just stop complaining.

CCA is great man. so happy that i made the right choice and not joined Hockey. come on man , we got thrashed 6-0 against VJC . how cool is that. lol . so yeah. im in CANOEING. oh yeah! haha. its damn fun lah. training is tough but like what they say , NO PAIN NO GAIN . getting used to the hectic trainings and they're increasing the intensity. oh wells. we dont really have a choice.

well, nothing to say alr! got work to do . it never endsssss. blog again when im freee. ciao.
HAVE FUN IN POLY YO.

P.S my blog's not dead. just in coma . hahah!

2008-01-02T01:47:00.000+08:00

alright. just reached home not long from work . tired? nt really. super slack today . haunted with regrets. alot of ppl's off to some JC for 3weeks while im working. seems alright but feels kinda sian to me ? maybe not the right word to use but, i dunno what seems to be the right phrase to describe it . anyway , i shall stop here. sian diao =/

good luck in JC! enjoy yourself. go make new friends while i work my ass off. bleh.

2008-01-01T14:46:00.000+08:00

alright. back since ages ago but have been lazy to update. as usual . heh . anyway, i spent my newyear's eve and new year's day working while everyone else is having fun. hooray! bleh -.-

happy newyear anyway .

2007-12-20T22:07:00.000+08:00

hello all! im currently in osaka and the weather here is GREAT. cold yeah but nice all the same. the scenery here is breathtaking too . not that i've seen much cause its only been 1 day....LOL . alright. i dunno what to say anymore. hah. ciao!

2007-12-19T18:13:00.000+08:00

here again . lol . blogging from the airport. going off like anytime soon alr . just came to say my final goodbyes. LOL .

kkay. im gonna miss my bed . and using the com . sad .

gtg alr! bye!

2007-12-19T15:27:00.000+08:00

hellllooooo. alright. quick summary of my past few weeks before im off =)

hmm , nothing special though. been working. 2 weeks alr ^^ . visit me when im back okay? its at Wisma. Cosmo the Bistro . bet you never heard of it before . heh . neither have i when i first when there. LOL . nice place. fun too . okay. i guess thats all for now . i gotta catch a plane to japan . time check : 330pm and im suppose to leave home at 4. woots. i haven even bathe . gotta run!

ciao .

2007-11-24T22:34:00.001+08:00

Specially for TAN BOON LONG .

It's been 2 years. Though the time we spend together may not be long, the memories that we had, irreplaceable. The short timespan that we've known each other has made my life more fun and interesting with your constant unique language. " Ah DUI . ", " SHU ", " Wo Zhi Dao " and many more . These we will never forget. We'll continue spreading what we call the ' boon long language' around . We will miss the time we spend together playing PSP , sharing games, going for EL and CL oral together. I'll miss having you as my lab partner too. The times when we said : " eh , i dont feel like doing leh " or even " wah sian lah, today you do lah " . These are the memories that will always be etched in our minds .

Dont forget us! cause we definitely wont . Take care when you're there and keep in contact! Yi Lu Shun Feng! hope to see you again in 2 years time .

All the best my dear friend, Boon Long .

2007-11-24T15:42:00.000+08:00

In life , we don't always succeed whenever we set out to do a task. However, it's important to know how to get back on your feet and try again. The constant ups and downs are inevitable. Never get disheartened when things don't go your way cause one day, they will ..

Centurion rocked.

2007-11-12T18:27:00.000+08:00

~~Amaths paper 1~~
~~Amaths paper2~~
~~Chemistry paper2~~
~~Geography paper 2~~
~~English paper1 and 2, E-maths paper 1~~
~~Emaths paper 2~~
~~Chinese paper 1 and 2~~
~~Social Studies, Biology paper 2~~
~~Literature~~(i hate lit for life)
~~Geography paper 1~~
~~Chemistry paper 1~~

Biology paper one is all thats left! woots. finally . but lit day sucked big time . =/ hey hey , anything to do ? im bored at home . blehs .

2007-11-10T16:21:00.000+08:00

Boys Like Girls : Thunder

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go,
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye,I'm holding on to something and I do not know why,
I tried.
I tried to read between the lines,
I tried to look in your eyes,
I want a simple explanation,
For what I'm feeling inside.
I gotta find a way out,
Maybe there's a way out..

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer.
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said.
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.
I don't wanna ever love another.
You'll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain,
And bring on the thunder.

Today is a winding road,
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know,
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own,
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone,
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know).
And now I'm itching for the tall grass,
And longing for the breeze.
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe.
I gotta find a way out,
Maybe theres a way out..

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said.
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.
I don't wanna ever love another,
You'll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain..
Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope,
I'm wrapped up in vines.
I think we'll make it out,
But you just gotta give me time.
Strike me down with lightning,
Let me feel you in my veins.
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain..

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go..
Whoa..

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer,
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said.
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors.
I don't wanna ever love another,
You'll always be my thunder,
So bring on the rain..
Oh baby bring on the pain,
And listen to the thunder.

2007-10-30T20:49:00.001+08:00

holy shittttt . WARNING : please do not attemp to eat at the sell the duck sorta crap in between the sell fish stuffs and korean food at great world food junction. Failure to do so will result in intant food poisoning happening at 2-3 hours later.

aight, i got food poisoning today. vomitted like mad i tell you . went to the docs to get some jab. better now but it aint the best time to get such shit . lucky tmr's paper is CHINESE . zzz .

ciao . off to get some salt water to drink, as advised by the docs. zzz =/

2007-10-25T22:07:00.000+08:00

~~Amaths Paper1~~
~~Amaths Paper1~~
~~chemistry paper 2~~
~~geography paper 2~~

Up nxt:

(29/10)Monday - EL1,EL2,Emaths1
(30/10)Tuesday - Emaths2
(31/10)Wednesday - MT 1, MT 2
(5/11) SS , Biology paper2
(6/11) Lit
(7/11) geography paper 1
(12/11)chemistrypaper1
(13/11)biology paper 1

4 down. many more to go . today's geog was shit . totally crap. worse shit of all ? im falling sick .

shit.

2007-10-12T22:21:00.000+08:00

the BIG 'O's are here. oh great. its like, i barely studied. there's too much to cover during this short timespan and thus, im SCREWED. and the worst shit i have no idea whether to go to POLY or JC . crap . someone save me pretty pretty please ? i'll be good from now on, i promise .

bleh .

2007-10-08T20:34:00.001+08:00

shucks. while showering , i suddenly thought of something that i wanted to end so bad 2 years ago. my swimming club . =/ i can still remember how i asked me mum for me to stop swimming. hey, who wouldn't if you have to swim on every tues-friday, 530pm-830pm and on sunday mornings 630-830. but now , i kinda miss it. kinda regret quitting it at the same time. competetive swimming was definetely was my cup of tea but its a thing of the past now .

sigh .

2007-10-02T22:44:00.001+08:00

thanks ALOT . i so 'needed' that .

2007-09-29T23:13:00.000+08:00

SClub7 : Say GoodBye

In the years to come,
Will you think about these moments that we shared?
In the years to come,
Are you gonna think it over,
And how we lived each day with no regrets?

Nothing lasts forever though we want it to.
The road ahead holds different dreams for me and you..

Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny.
Sometimes goodbye, though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me.
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way.
So say goodbye
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies..

In a year from now,
Maybe there'll be things we'll wish we never said.
In a year from now
Maybe we'll see each other
Standing on the same street corner, no regrets.

Each and every end is always written in the stars
If only I could stop the world, I'd make this last..

Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll miss your love in every way
So say goodbye (so say goodbye)
But don't you cry
'Coz true love never dies..

And when you need my arms to run into
I'll come for you
Nothing will ever change the way I feel..

Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts in you heart
Is the only way for destiny (is the only way for destiny)
Sometimes goodbye (sometimes goodbye), though it hurts
Is the only way now for you and me (is the only way for you and me)
Though its the hardest thing to say
I'll missing your lovin' every day
So say goodbye
But don't you cry

Because a true love never dies...

2007-09-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

sorry for the lag in updating but hey, im back .

Let's start from err. i think a week ago ? around there bah. so a group of us decided to meet and go arnd shopping for our "Be Yourself Day" attire . and about 10 of us met up and we went arnd. we met at tiong, went bugis, fareast and then bugis again -.-

Pics For The Moment .

Monkey Group photo 1.

Monkey Group Photo 2 ( they're kinda shy. )

Monkey 1 . OMG. see hw intelligent and rich are they. PSP wor~

Monkey 2. Not that rich. jealous of monkey 1's psp . but has an MP3 all the same. shld be playing " Tarzan n Jane " .

Monkey 3. kinda a glutton. at least his plate is CLEAN.

Monkey 4. Wah. Send SMS wor~

Monkey 5. Another glutton. Hungry and camera-shy.

Monkey 6. " get lost. im just thirsty"

Say Hi to Hardeep's cousin/brother. kukudeep(as suggested by munwah.)

Alright. somewhere during the week. i think on monday, we had our dance rehearsal. and when we were going home. lingzhen had a sudden hormonal rise....

no further explanation needed ?

oh. yesterday's dinner was great. wooot .

looks great right ?

running off. ciao.

i was looking forward to it.

Shattered, like a mirror

the broken pieces lay on the floor.

hw long will it take to gather and piece them back?

i wonder....

2007-08-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

迷路兵 - 适应

没想过爱竟会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心
故事的结局走不出背影
我只能静静地
风吹醒那些曾经
转过身我用眼泪聆听

心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静
我也想小心地收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的翻起

没想过爱竟会下落不明
寂寞都不忍心
故事的结局走不出背影
我只能 (我只能) 静静地
风吹醒那些曾经 (那些曾经)
转过身我用眼泪聆听

心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静
我也想小心地收起所有回忆
你却一直住在心里(在心里) 是谁都无法代替

我的心该怎么学会去适应
那些没你的安静
我也想小心地收起所有回忆
却总是忍不住不断的翻起

爱开始了该怎么去喊停...

wooots. i posted. haha. 迷路兵's 适应! nice song . got hooked on this song thanks to EUGENETAY. haha . Therefore, i shalll dedicate this post to him . =) so gay -.-

nothing to say alr! just bored this few days

ciao .

2007-07-31T18:17:00.000+08:00

honestly, i dont really care.

my life's getting messed up.

2007-07-07T23:37:00.000+08:00

it just hurts ,
and it worsens each time.
i can't help it .

it hurts badly.

2007-07-03T22:34:00.000+08:00

day after day , the endless troubles never seem to go away huh ? why cant things end . why cant it turn out like how you want it to . is there really nothing that goes the way you planned or hope ? is it really so dreadful to be able to live in this horrid world ?

argh. screw it .

2007-07-02T23:25:00.001+08:00

things never seem to go right don't they ? don't you realise that there are neverending problems and endless headaches you have to face ? face reality . there's no way out from this hectic world that we are living in. reality sucks .

i'm a victim too .

2007-06-22T00:16:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM 2F05 BBQ. woots. shall not talk bout it first. but the more fun part. heh . the bbq maybe tmr . =)

lingzhen , zhaopeng, janvin, wenjie and I wanted to go play pool after the thing while the rest went home . so we took a direct bus down to greatworld to play at kimseng. HOWEVER , when we arrived and about to cross the road , a few policemen there. we were like " SHIT . DIE. GG " . BUT , nothing one lor . they ask us for I/C or Ez-link . phone number, phone IMEI number , adress and name then check some stuff okay alr . then say what, send letter to home to inform parents that we were out just in case etc. then we left. woooooots. exciting like anything only~ ahah . first time mah . abit sua ku . but fun . hahahah . OH YA , JANVIN DAMN FUNNY . the police was like " eh , your name janvin ? unique name ." and he went " of course. " WAHHA . and then " you stay at delta ave ? nice place, not alot of gangsters. " and janvin went " thats good . i hate them " XDXDXD

alright , i need go bathe . ciao .

2007-06-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

tired arhhhhhh~ . aight, let's start from last night .

was watching TV when my phone rang all of a sudden. marcus called. i answered it , like duh , and marcus was like "eh , we coming to your house now . open door hor ." then i was like " WHHHAAATT ?! " so in the end , i had 3 monkeys in my house , wenjie, xiaoyang, marcus . after awhile, they decided to ton at my house and TADAH , they did it . unfortunately, our dear marcus had to go off . so we stayed up till 6am and finally slept . woke up at 9am while the 2 monkeys woke up arnd 915 . we slacked awhile and went off to GWC macs for bfast. we then left to head for purmei after that to meet peeps for ball.

then on the way there, it started to drizzle. sian! but hor , that MUNWAH called. " eh, faster come leh . here perfect weather ." then i was like o.O ? "perfect meh ? i see sky dark dark one i also very near there leh ." then he said: " no lah, here perfect. there dark only " . then when we arrived. viola! RAINING -.- so we headed off to gene's house so taht he can change and put the ball back and we went safra to pool . played till 1 and we headed back to purmei again to ball . rain stop alr . played till arnd 5+ cause it rained. wah, seriously super tired lah . went tiong makan with munwah, talk cock and then went home ~

i'm off to rest alr . ciao~~~~

2007-06-10T23:17:00.000+08:00

hmm , met zhaopeng, lingzhen and noel today to discuss about stuffs. wasted alot of time talking rubbish, as usual. heh . walk here and there and we finally decided and finalised on stuffs. michael came to our rescue too . hehe . you'll know why sooner or later. =D

arnd 1+ , peng and zhen left. so mike, noel and me went to makan at BK . noel left soon after to meet her mum . left the 1 of us, we practically stoned. after awhile decided to go to mike's house to check out sth . but was " chased out " by his bro . zzzzz . so went GWC arcade. met munwah and wenjie. watch them play 2 games and i left. too sleepy alr .

went home . fell asleep . went out for dinner and back home again . so sian~ zzzzz .

anything to do besides studying anyone ?

ciao .

2007-06-10T00:28:00.000+08:00

im blogging im bloggin! haha . miracle but yesss i am . xD aight , nth much today . just stoned at home in front of the computer. my bro introduced me to a new anime . " Aishiteruze Baby " . damn nice lahh~ 2 more episodes to go! woooo~

ciao .

2007-06-07T22:55:00.000+08:00

SL CAMP

we started the day off dragging our feets towards the arena . everyone giving the " get me out of here " face. some of us had out small little groups of friends. however, we were told that we would be allocated to different groups. i was a victim of the seperation when i was called off to join group one.

GROUP ONE :
STEPHANIE
Jane
Lydia
Wen Yee
Xun Hao
Cheng Pin
Raniljit
Clarence
ME.

i went there and thought : " wah sian . no one i talk to one . zzz . " but i was wrong . i had a good start with ranil. we were the ' jokers ' of the group. however, everyone was silent . we proceeded on to our ice breaking games thereafter which we didnt really break any ice at all . not very effective but yet, it was a good start. we put our heads together and came up with our first group cheer. Station games were up next and we had our laughs and fun during the various stations. it sort of brought the group even closer though , not good enough.

Lunch was up next. everyone was seriously looking forward to a good hearty meal after a tiring morning. after lunch was amazing race. not really race but kinda interesting. to pick out a particularly interesting part of the race was the transferring of water from a full pail of water to an empty one only with your HAIR . though some were disgusted, we managed to pull through and even managed to collect the most water out of the 5 groups.

we had a very messy but fun water bomb war immediately after the race. we had to protect our flags and while doing so , take the other group's flag. it was really fun and everyone worked well together. we showered up and had our dinner. as usual, cheers and it was performance preparation time. every individual group had to come up with a skit lasting at least for a full 5 mins and performed it later during the allocated performance time slot in the AVA room . we had a great time thinking and rehearsing for our performance. we finally got our dear WAN YEE to speak up and we used her idea as our skit . everyone had a good laugh in the process.

we then proceeded to the AVA room for the perfomances and every group did a very good job. however, the main highlight was LINGZHEN's GATSBY COMMERCIAL . he did the gatsby rubber wax song. everyone including the coaches were bursting in laughter. night activity was nxt and we had to crawl through tables and chairs BLINDFOLDED. it wasnt an easy feat. but somehow or rather, we managed to pull through it and did fairly well . movie screening was nxt. we watch " GridIron Gang " (i think) . great show. it's a motivational show ( duh . ) but it was a really good one . we ended at 230am and did some reflections and washed up . lights out at 315am .

Next day , its either we got up way before out reporting time of 730am or those sleepy heads would be awoken by the crazy screaming of the facilitators in the morning shouting their asses off . we had PT at 730 which lasted for a whole solid hour and then breakfast. sharing session involved the whole group to put our heads together and come up with some stuffs. by then , group one was already gelled and ready to kick start. we were kinda the ' craziest ' group arnd. we NEVER stop laughing. especially so with LYDIA the laughing queen . she would even start shouting when she was TIRED. its like , o.O . anyway, we had lunch and then some proposal stuff and we had our final activity which is to build a tower which was supposed to be waist level and able to hold a 500ml water bottle, can of drink and an empty can . it wasnt easy but grp 5 did an outstanding job. ending off, we did our area cleaning and then debrief session . group 5 was awarded the best group award. congrats.

aight, i need to catch my beauty sleep . ciao~~

2007-03-17T13:44:00.000+08:00

i'm the only one who's hanging on to the past. everyone's moved on. what's up with that man ? why can't i just learn to let it go, unmask myself and just move on ? ugh .

things aint as it seems. learn to let loose. let go of what you're clinging on to.

2007-03-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

check this out . http://www.interschoolbiathlon.com/

anyone that's interested pls indicate at my tagboard. indicate if you're going for relay or individual too. thanks. =)

its on the 21 April held at East Coast Park . For senior division, its 800m SWIM and 5km RUN .

ciao

2007-02-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

abandoned my blog for weeks. finally i dont feel lazy to type ? yeah yeah.

as usual, emo emo emo . nothing much to say huh ? but seriously, really been rather emo lately. on off on off. mostly it's happening but of course, no one knows. and that's a good thing. at least i dont let my mood affect others. it's mostly the cheery me you see around. fooling, monkey-ing around. that's the side of me that most people see. lala~ i can be a mediacorp actor alr. so proud of myself.

lotsa stuffs happen lately. stuffs bout studies, relationships, friends. problems surfaces and things get messy. problems that have no solutions, or problems that aint that easy to handle. everything goes out of hand and i cant cope. help ? no one answers my prayers. sigh. that's life huh ? studies wise, defintely not up to mark. everything's dropping. not paying attention during lessons. aint studying for tests and aint completing much homework. the worse part, ' O ' s coming real real soon . its like freaking round the corner. sos anyone ?

ah enough of emoing and crapping bout things that dont really matter. talk bout sth else. hmm , just had our master parade recently and woohoo~ i got promoted. =) kinda happy and all . yeah. but rank dont matter anyway. its a person's capabilities that really matter. talked to Ryan Tallulah bout stuffs and realise alot of things. he also thought me various stuffs and i hope i can put it into good use.

aight , thats all i have. ciao.

will things be right ?

will i have the chance ?

should i go for it ?

im confused.

2007-02-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

why ?! why did i have to let that opportunity slip pass me ?! that golden chance , gone . probably not gonna happen again . ohwells , i aint that lucky anyway .

been very moody this few days . my mood just goes on and off . the very extremes to be exact . eversince by beloved communicating device left my side . =/ and i dunno whether its coming back soon or at least a mth later . zzz . crap .

i really hate EL and LIT periods . my mood just totally change whenever i see that next on my timetable . i've never detested attending a lesson so much before . why must this happen . its totally affecting the rest of the lessons too . sigh . the worse part is Os coming this year . hell , im dead .

and so much for my chem test . what's up with moles anyway?! wong wong had to test a freaking hard test that i didnt know hw to do . even some other unexpected ppl to me know hw to do it . and me ? BLANK . omg , freaking demoralising . that sucks . probably have to start paying attention in class again huh ?

oh oh oh . no mid year exams for us this year = i wont study to prelims = ITS TOO LATE . zzz . isnt it better having MYE ? better than having some crappy lessons which end up having students dozing off . well , personal perspective though .

side tracking , to those interested in taking part in NUS Biathlon , please take a look at this website and tell me ASAP . closing date on 11th of FEB . tell me before friday if possible . thanks . http://www.nusbiathlon07.com/

gotta go for now . ciao .

2007-01-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for days . hmm , lets see if there's anything significant to talk bout .

Lets start from TUESDAY.

had lit that day . went for lesson and guess what ? we got scolded by our dear Ms Chia . zzz . its just because i didnt freaking wrap my lit ' journal ' with some fanciful girly design thats all what . sian . at least i bothered to bring my lit stuffs . that's better than those with NOTHING . English was next and again , another scolding session by Ms Chia . this time was bout some english spelling pang saii . SOMEBODY , not gonna mention names , smartly wrote a journal entry specially dedicated to Ms Chia and told her bout our ' feat ' . sian siol . had to write some crappy letter of apology . roar .

WEDNESDAY .

wah ! bestest day . DEREK TAN HAD TO ATTEND COURSE . which means no geog lesson for the day . woots . damn happy . went for some SL briefing or some shit at the sch hall which drrraaaggggeeedddd so long till 3 . and munwah , chijie and jiayi waited for me to go to the gym . SORRY . =/ anyway , gym-ed after that . and omg , JYI ACTUALLY RAN NON-STOP FOR 10 WHOLE MINUTES . unbelievable ? believe it . LOL . oh ya, on the way to the gym , saw some sec 1 queenstown kiddos fighting . then munwah was like wanted to shout or sth but didnt -.- so i decided to and viola ! it works like a charm! lol . they kena scareded and split up . so kind of me right . =D i know . heh . anyway , gym-ed from 330 - 515 and we proceeded to tiong for lunch cum dinner . and chi jie was drinking some protein drink which is strawberry flavoured. and when i asked him what that was , he told me " strawberry drink , protein flavoured " LOL .

THURSDAY .

Siannest day of the week . Double amaths , double emaths , double english then recess . phew . so sian lah . and lim bun was like so funny lor . " Today i wont give you so much homework . Do questions 1-6 . " o.O wow . so LITTLE siol . zzz . sakeena's lesson was next and we were drawing some stuff. forgot what's the chapter call liao . quite easy worrr . oh ya , last two periods was BIO and we were suppose to draw onion , ginger , water chestnut and potato . munwah got a ginger shaped like a camel and started drewing eyes and the camel started to MOVE . woots . =D nothing much happened soon after cept that i never perspire so much while playing ball before . o.O

FRIDAY .

BEST DAY SO FAR . we were seated down at the arena and waiting for the relief orders . 4g was like so suay and never tio any relief and we were hoping it was our turn . god answered our prayers when Mr Mui said " 4g under Ms Foong and Ms Ho " . wahh . on sia . total 4 free periods . songgg~~ MT free period was boring but Bio was FUN TO THE MAX . cept that got some spoilers and i shall not elaborate . inside thingy . heh .

well , thats all for the week i guess ? nth much . tests next week . sian .

been feeling emo for the pass few days . thinking bout some stuffs . dont understand whats wrong either . am i really that bad ? am i really that detestable ? well , i dont know . different people have different perspective and mayber YOURS is different bah . i'll just have to accept that . sigh .

aights , gtg for now . BB's on tmr. sianzified . nights all .

2007-01-16T20:46:00.000+08:00

OMG!! I LOVE SEROYEN TEO!!! THANKS ALOT~~ HE FIXED MY COM PROB!

2007-01-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

havent been updating for a long while . just too lazy . lol .

anyway , sch's been a real bore . and Mrs Tay aint teaching us amaths anymore . Lim Bun is . woots . he teaches god damn fast . save me~
and now we have to stay back for LIT lessons and also for MT lessons . so that leaves me with only TUESDAYS free . sian sia . i hate sch man . i really do .

alright , i hate 12 jan more . dont ask me why . im just praying it rains on that day . no weather forecasting website can give me a definite and assuring answer . some say it's gonna rain . some say it's not gonna . omg . which to believe ?!

2006-12-25T23:37:00.000+08:00

army seems fun . o.O

2006-12-20T02:15:00.000+08:00

150 bucks ! =D

2006-12-07T01:20:00.000+08:00

fuck lah . my bro broke my specs and now i cant see for nuts . this old specs of mine makes EVERY damn thing blur . @#*$#& ! zz . i'll probably go down to the specs shop and try and fix that darn thing or make a new one . zzz . crap .

2006-12-06T03:40:00.000+08:00

it's 340am already and i still cant sleep . dunno why . thinking through some things bah ...

You don't run with the crowd , you go your own way .
You dont't play after dark , you light up my day .
Got your own kind of style , that sets you apart .
Baby, that's why you captured my heart .

I know sometimes you feel , like you don't fit in .
And this world doesn't know , what you have within .
When I look at you , I see something rare .
A rose that can grow anywhere .

And there's no one I know that can compare .

What make's you different , makes you beautiful .
What's there inside you , shines through to me .
In your eyes I'll see , all the love I'll ever need .
What makes you different, makes you beautiful to me ..

You got something so real, you touched me so deep .
You see , material things dont matter to me .
So come as you are , you've got nothing to prove .
You won me with all that you do .

And I wanna take this chance to say to you,

What makes you different , makes you beautiful .
What's there inside you , shines through to me .
In your eyes I'll see , all the love I'll ever need .
What makes you different, makes you beautiful .

You don't know, how you touched my life,
Oh, in so many ways that i cant describe .
You taught me what love is supposed to be .
It's all the little things that make you beautiful to me ..

What makes you different , makes you beautiful .
What's there inside you , shines through to me .
In your eyes I'll see , all the love I'll ever need .
What makes you different , makes you beautiful to me ..

2006-11-29T02:25:00.000+08:00

sigh~ Emo-ing again when im trying so hard not to . lots of things been going on around me . and also i've been thinking bout lotsa stuff . sigh . no one have it easy huh ?

2006-11-26T19:10:00.000+08:00

back from LDC II camp . damn fun . really enjoyed these few Days spend in camp .

in wasnt as tough as i thought it was , in fact, i was slack . but that's good as well . we bonded with each other more .

Alpha and BRAVO company . these were the 2 companies we had during the camp . we did our activities together within our companies headed by a CSM which was always changing . the second day , CAMPUS SUPERSTAR was the highlight of the camp . everyone was all high by the activities and perfomances we had . and of course , the star of the show , ME . hehe . wanna know why ? see the pic from wilson's blog and combine it with some great , hot and sexy moves . =D

the camp ended before we all knew it , when we finally knew each other better and enjoyed each other's company . but we all had fun , and we will always remember that we completed this course , LDC II 209 , together .

209!!

2006-11-23T23:38:00.000+08:00

cut my hair yesterday . now i feel so bald . my head feels so cold . =/ sigh~ my beautiful hair >.<

lol . doesnt matter . it was time anyway . my hair was getting way too long . and i must have TRIM AND NEAT hair for the camp . so i have to suffer this botak-ness . T.T

aight , camp's on tmr . SLACK WOR . dont even need to wear full uniform . not even HALF U . omg . and it's a HQ camp . LOL LOL . so cool right . hehe . i bet it's gonna be fun . =D

balled today . well , not really . just shot for like , 20-30 mins and then it started to pour . so we ran for shelter and i slipped and fell . ow . i got a boo boo . -.- lol . just a small injury . anyway , we stoned in front of Econ minimart talking bout MAHJONG before we went home lahh . so fun right . and i've got a date with wils, jyi and louis for mahjong . im gonna learn . yay . =D

well , end off her liao . gonna rest early for camp .....NOT .

ciao .

2006-11-15T02:14:00.000+08:00

sigh . i still dunno what happened . whats the story behind it . im not sure whether she said it . or it's just an assumption .

clear my doubts ?

zz

chalet's coming soon . woo .

2006-11-14T00:46:00.000+08:00

off for chalet tmr . will things be reverted back when im gone ? or will there be more implications . argh . nothing seems right .

2006-11-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

the world's changing . everything's changing . nothing's the same anymore .

i've lost a friend .
maybe more than just A friend .

sigh~

what's the world coming to ?!?!

2006-11-09T20:34:00.000+08:00

zz . things never go right for me .

Emo-ing again . zzz .

sorry wz , that magnum aint working .

2006-11-08T23:14:00.000+08:00

get out of your fantasy already, ignatius .

get out of that fantasy that you yourself created . time aint gonna stop for you ..

2006-11-08T02:21:00.000+08:00

stop dreaming already ignatius .

it aint gonna happen to you . Not now . Not Tmr . Not ever

sigh~

2006-11-04T02:38:00.000+08:00

aight . hols have been real boring . zzz . i'd rather have sch ? neh . i'd rather have ball . lol .

oh oh . guess what . i figured out that Os are coming like so so so soon . omg .

one more thing . gonna ball at 130pm today . wee ~ and i haven sleep . o.0

2006-10-31T00:59:00.000+08:00

do you really wanna continue this ? or you wanna end it ? from what you've said so far it's though we're though .

2006-10-31T00:11:00.000+08:00

you really enjoy doing this ? you think it's fun ? what happened to you . you're not you anymore . im tired of this . why must it always end off this way ? am i really that detestable ? it's not going to be any better if things carry on like that .

im a jerk . i know it .

2006-10-27T23:45:00.000+08:00

was practically rotting at home the whole day today . no ball T.T sad huh ? zzz .

was waiting for louis . he went to the docs . then the doc did acupuncture or sth . cant play . bleahs . sad for him . has MC for training tmr too . lucky bastard .

kcd , messaged him at arnd 330 . he told me he wasnt playing cos him mum would screw him due to his results . fine . called him later at 730 . he was outside having dinner after a session of LAN . so in other words . he was playing LAN when i messaged him . and he told me his mum that crap . what a great friend indeed .

i so wanna play ball!! anyone interested ? munwah ? jyi ? puayleng ? wilson ? anyone ? zzz . JIO ME HOR .

aight . so, BB's on tmr . damn siian . FULL UNIFORM . kao eh . got what NCO meeting . waste my time . i hate going for BB . i feel lonely . no one really care bout BB anyway . it makes me feel damn like , dont have the drive to do anything . look at the other CCAs . why cant these boys understand . FUCK .

anyway, im off . ciao .

2006-10-16T22:50:00.000+08:00

sigh . im in low spirits now . and it's all my god damn results fault . oh man . i totally screwed this FTE up . sigh . should have studied harder . well , guess it's too late . no point crying over spilt milk . study hard for next year bahh .

what im really frustrated about is mainly my amaths and geog . wah lau . i flunked my amaths like no mother sia . zzz . my first failure for amaths . sigh~ damn disspointed lahh . cant i at least get a pass . it's like the only subject i fail also . zz . well , on including CA and all . still , same thing .

the other thing is the geog . fuck . paper 1 killed me TOTALLY . my god . it's like i got super low . i think lowest in class liao . champion to the max. 13/25 . how GREAT . if only i studied for that . IF . too many IFs ready . anyway , lucky my paper 2 saved me . 62/75 . phew . if you add both , viola , i get 75 . just nice A1 . but derek tan just had to take paper 1 as 30% and paper 2 as 70% . zz . so that means , i get 73 . how great . it makes so much diff . THANKS . o.0

aight . chem aint as bad as i imagined . 78 . lost to munwah by 0.4 though , dang . woo . SS was simply TYCO . i cant believe i get 36/50 for it lahh . omg . it's like i didnt finish the damn paper . woots . buy munwah had to get 38 . -.- crapp~~~ well , i cant really compare with him . he reall studied hard . not like me . shant mention why . dont wanna start blaming ppl . but some of you know ya ? lol .

emaths , fuck that subj . i just cant do well in it no matter what . maths , regardless A or E . im gonna study hard . i promise . i cant afford to get this kind of marks again . not after the blow from last year . no . history's not gonna repeat itself . PLEASE .

oh , and BIO . woots . thanks to someone i didnt really study . in fact , i DIDNT even study . fuck . it's a miracle i even passed . thanks munwah for teaching me bout that dialysis machine thingy . if not i'll probably flunk my bio too . heng sia~

tmr will be getting LIT and EL paper 1 i guess . hope i dont screw lit up too much . didnt study for that at all . cause i hate Macbeth . dumb book . i dont think it's in EL and they claim is OLDEN ENGLISH . zzz . screw the damn writer . cant he/she make things easier for us ? zzz . as for EL , aint too bad. paper 2 got 31/50 . hope paper 1 dont kill me again like geog . i have a feeling it will . didnt bother to end off my compo well . zzz . screw it .

enough of me bitching bout my results . haze is back! roar . that means that lesser bball . damn . i really looked forward to it before the monsoon rain comes . zz . please go away haze ? anyway , take care ppl .

going to Singapore Poly tmr . dunno for what pangsai . hey , at least 1110 can go off . woo . but dunno what to do after that . ball ? i dont mind . but no one to play with . and furthermore , the ball's gone once again . how nice . zzz . 2nd ball already . lmao .

aight . enough already . long enough ? xD

ciao .

2006-10-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

great . my results suck totally . but guess what? i passed chinese . how nice . -.-

ciao .

2006-10-12T00:04:00.000+08:00

aight . this is stupid . im feeling emo .

2006-10-10T22:27:00.000+08:00

w00 . i lagged the whole exam period . didnt blog . hey , at least it shows that im studying... NOT . lol . just too lazy .

aight . my exams finally ended with pure geog paper 1 . crap . and i lost 4 marks i think . zzz . shld have read the bloody question properly . damnit . amaths was a HUGE killer . trust me . im gonna fail . hopefull my midyear+CA helps me . Bio , good luck wor. why? someone didnt study .. lala~ not me .. lol . zzz . chemistry, paper 2.. ahh!! paper 2 sucked big time! SS , not enough time . emaths , err. since when was i good in emaths ? elec lit , anyhow bomb lor . EL , what did you know , it aint that difficult! ^^ chinese , i chiong through the paper, cause i was damn sleepy . lol . that's it i guess . i screwed this exam . omg . im so dead lor . hope i dont retain .

putting that aside , 2 days to play before i die on friday while checking the papers .

cya .

2006-09-28T22:00:00.000+08:00

how exciting . tmr's my geog paper . guess what? i barely flipped through the book . i cant remember anything much . sigh . im screwed .

2006-09-24T00:30:00.000+08:00

yeah . i saw PEIXIAN and gang today . forced to post that . zz . waste of time .

hmm . i figured out im not gonna make it for FYE . i will not have enough time for revision . guess im gonna retain . zzz . cya .

2006-09-22T23:43:00.000+08:00

sigh~ i dont know how and where to start .

all alone .

shoo off .

stop reading this ...

~lifesucks .

2006-09-22T22:37:00.000+08:00

things are not getting better . revision not even near completion and more things emerged . man this sucks .

2006-09-20T22:18:00.000+08:00

sigh , im damn pathetic . god, just shoot me down .

2006-09-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

can someone please guide me ? help me ? teach me ? instead of preparing to score well for the exams , i think im preparing to fail . sigh . i need help . to top it all . im getting emo and all . zzzz .

~screwed..

2006-09-19T20:54:00.000+08:00

i aint in a good mood . i aint telling why . sigh . this sucks . i guess i should not have thought it's gonna be the same as before . everything's changed . everyone's changed . dont be such a fool ignatius . move on!!! sigh ..

im definitely not gonna make it for my final year exams . oh god bless .. zzzzzzzzz

2006-09-18T01:30:00.000+08:00

aight . i can get to sleep and im not in a good mood . sigh~ been thinking alot .. everything's really changing ..

all the best to everyone out there ...

the first neoprint i ever took . sigh~ reminiscingthose days.. it'll never be back . take care guys ..

not to forget jackson . although he aint that sociable kind of guy, he's a real great buddy . i'll never forget him .

best buddies . lol . we've beentaking part in aquathalon since sec 1 and 2 . but stopped at sec 3 . remember those days ?

2006-09-18T00:50:00.000+08:00

everything's going too fast . i just can keep up with that speed . save me please . im not gonna make it for final year exams . seriously . sigh~ im gonna retain . i need help here ? can someone teach and guide me please ? someone who can clear my doubts, go through revision with me and can explain to me everything i need to know .

chem's killing me . my teacher aint doing anything bout it . bio lessons getting boring cause of the change of teacher . i've never been good a emaths right from the start . my standard of english is dropping . chinese always been a killer . amaths still fine but im starting to forget about what i've learn . SS + Lit , since when have i even paid attention . geog , it just doesnt seem to go well for me anymore . sigh .

the pace just too fast . im laggin behind . someone , anyone , please save me . put me back to that race . i dont wanna lag behind any longer . i need to catch up fast .

putting that aside , i just recovered . well , not fully but so-so . sigh . im going bonkers . help ? hmm . studies one thing . other things, i dont know how to say . sigh . everything's wrong for me . im failing as a whole . darn . retribution for something i did wrong?

oh and btw , ' High School Musical ' is a nice show .

~everything's changing . it aint the same ....

2006-09-14T21:11:00.000+08:00

aight . im down with fever, flu , sore throat and cough . started this morning and its not making any progress . great . just when FYE is just round the corner . what perfect timing . im off . zzzz

2006-09-09T01:56:00.000+08:00

one more thing before i forget , alwyn's gone for NS (080906) .

2006-09-09T00:52:00.000+08:00

ahh! die die die . in around 9 hours time i gonna have bible quiz competition . zzz . although it's like SUPER boring , hope can win lahh . if not very what lehh . sighh . all the best to me ?

P.S I didnt study . woo~

2006-09-08T01:01:00.000+08:00

aight . another day wasted without studying again . man . this sucks totally . zzz . well , here goes .

woke up late today . 11+ if im not wrong ? omg . dunno why i slept like a pig . maybe i just didnt wanna wake up . lol . took my time and then prepared to leave for the library . ahh . study at last . WRONG . reached the interchange on time . like i normally am . =) yeah . jaar was late . waited for 30 mins and he still wasnt there . o.0 saw felicia , then chindee and jonathan . walked with them to the lib . waited awhile and jaar came .

ahh ~ study!! but i just got distracted and starting reading some book . zzz . after awhile . did some amaths questions and back to slackin . woo~ how nice . then jaar went to the toilet and on the way , he met chien may . coincidential ? dunno . met so many people . actually , its just that im a people magnet . lol . kidding .

then we met jyi too . woo . mugging there . amaths . i think thats the ONLY subject she studies lahh . wth . suddenly so hardwoking . luckly only for amaths . phew~ anyway , sharry came , mun wah came . saw bin hong too . dunno what he doing lor . he was around the health and fitness section ..... woo~ Muscles ? xD

did abit more amaths and viola . we left to tiong . well , only me, jaar, munwah and chindee though . ate at kopitiam and then balled at kimseng with jaar, chindee and louis . not long later , ling zhen and jun jie came too . wahh , fun . we played . felt so free , so stressless ( is there such a word ? o.0 ) . nothing was bothering me at all . how nice that feeling . if only it lasts...

later on , a group of adults came . around 30+ ? but still super fit . lol . played with them 4 v 4 . and omg lahh . they all so freaking tall and we like so small and young but they dont give chance ? woots . BULLY . heck . played on . thrashed totally . sigh~ got another cut on my right eye too . how nice . one of them crashed into me and the next thing , CUT . zzz . stupid . but , at least i managed to reject one of that tall dude's ball . wahaha . loser . im like so short . bleahs . anyway , still lost . the only thing i earned is a damn cut .

supposed to have another match . but they plainly forgotten bout us and so , we sat there for an hour like idiots before we made a move . but , everything was coming back . those probs , those sickening feeling . my mood become so damn low . sigh~ it lasted all the way home and even till now . this sucks .

i like staying out at night . everything just seems so quiet and peaceful . it aint hot or noisy . its just silent . everything seems so different . i feel more at ease . i feel much more calm . it seems as though everything just stopped for me . but it aint true . it still moves on . but that short lived time i have is something that i really enjoy . it's so much different from the everyday hectic schedule we have . that endless studying and stress ....

ahh~ help me . i still cant get those things out of my head and i still can do anything bout it . omg . save me please . oh , and i wasted another day today . how nice . tmr's already friday . hols are ending soon . isnt that fast ? how nice . back to school again . woo! bleahs . -.-

~life sucks

2006-09-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

ah ? wednesday passed just like that . and you know what ? i didnt study AGAIN . and that means : homework not done . revision not done . studying not done . omg . i really wonder how am i gonna clear my Final Year Exams . sigh . i really need time management ? or maybe because i have distractions .....

hmm . woke up kinda late today . then wasted my whole day in front of the com playing games ? damn . you wanna know something hilarious ? i was bored so i played the games . and when i played them , i got even more bored o.0 zzzz . stupid logic but well , its true . sob . i just keep wasting my time in front of the com like some people do!! i'd rather do something else . but i just cant seem to touch the books . crap .

anyway , balled at kim seng CC around 4 . met KCD and louis there . but was abit hot and was kinda lazy to play so sat down all the way . boring what . 3 ppl . zzz . the after awhile . NPCC gang came . woots . just in time ? ah , whatever you call it . at least we manage to play .
damn fun . interesting . played center today lor . under the hoop . cause no one else could do it . you expect KCD to catch rebounds ? highly unlikely . so anyway , still interesting . at least its better then in front of the com . seriously .

played till around 8 . went great world for dinner with ling zhen . we sat down , and talked . talk talk talk before we starting eating . hmm . ling zhen . cheer up yah? i'm always available if you need a listening ear . hmm . after eating , accompanied him to the arcade . met louis and michael there . didnt play though . waste of money mahh . so watched lor . around 9 15 , went to macs to buy food for bro . went cold storage as michael needed to buy some stuffs and home i go . boring day ya ? zzzz . what can i do .

sigh~ i just cant stop thinking bout stuffs . i feel so stressed ? no wait . stress is NOT the right word to use . i just feel like exploding . lotsa things in my mind . i dont even know how to say it out . many things . roughly know what they are . sigh~ how ??? i just cant stop thinking bout them . sigh . havent been in a good mood cos of that . crap . i've no one to talk to . no one who really know bout my situation . get lost ..

~save me ..

2006-09-06T12:10:00.000+08:00

damn . exams are nearing , hols are also ending . why cant i just bring myself to start studying ? is it really that difficult ? zzz . at this rate , there's no way im gonna make it for my final year exams . ahh . help me !

im gonna flunk all my subjects and this time , my CA aint gonna save me . shoot . why havent i been studying for the bottom half of the year . argh . well, i do make an effort to try , but it just doesnt work . i cant study alone . omg . help ?

2006-09-05T22:30:00.000+08:00

sigh . im such an ass . sorry . that's all i can say bahh . i dunno what else i can do then . i dunno how to face you . zzz . sorry .

hmm . nothing much to say bah . just that , havent been in a good mood lately . ever since the hols started ? not sure ? zzz . sigh . bball is something that really lifts my mind off things but you know what ? i suck at it . woo~ its universal truth lahh deyy . o.0

aight . cya .

~just let me be

2006-08-31T17:35:00.000+08:00

sigh~ aint in a good mood now . ms huang's gone and all . sigh . its like we didnt even make her feel welcomed? man , this sucks . yeah yeah , im getting emo and all . bleahs . so what . zzz . i'll blog again later , HOPEFULLY . sigh~

2006-08-25T22:58:00.001+08:00

hmm . im blogging after a long long time huh ? well , lots of things happened during this period . but well , dont wish to say too much . emo ? bleahs . crap that shit .

munwah's been really bust this week . writing his 10000 sorries . poor chap . he's spend all his free time writing that . during free periods , he writes that . after school , he goes home to write that or hang around andwrite that . he even sacrificed playing basketball . omg . what a nice guy . hope lin qian appreciates ?

great . my amaths CA really like crap . 3 tests , i get crap . 40/40 , 10/20 , 21/25 . damn . im still behing munwah, jyi , chi jie . all because of that damned linear law . omg 1o marks lahh . zzz . and guess what . its not only my amaths . my EL also crappy though i cant rememeberd the marks . zzz . im gonna screw my FYE and its just a month away? damn .

havent been in the mood lately , feeling sad and all . better no elaborate too much bout that or ppl gonna start saying emo-kid or whatever . but its the truth right . what you expect me to do . zzz . hmm . things are not getting better or the both of us eh ? will things stay this way? or is the end really nearing? what am i to do ? im lost . nothing i do seems right to you anymore . sigh~

enough of that stuff , played ball for 5 and a half hour today lahh! woots . 2- 730 . finally after so long . at first we started off with like very little people . then it increased , and then they left , 2 came, 3 left . zzz. and the OBS peeps are back! woots . finally . class been quiet without them .anyway, we played till 730 lor . and , i was like damn sad today ? dunno why . i was just going bonkers till i kept joking around. zzz . the blasted ball whack my specs and it gave me a huge cut . argh .

aight , i dunno what to say no more . just hope everything else turns out right which , obviously, will not . ciao .

~damnit .

2006-08-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

sigh . there's first aid test tmr . argh . damn lazy go take that stupid test lahh . zzz . still must wake up so early . zzz . whatever . its better than paying ms kang the money for NOT going . woots . lmao . hope i remember how to do those stupid bandages which i dont find very useful . eh , wait . i dont even find them of ANY use .

alright , school's been crappy the whole damn week . had some chinese crap oral yesterday and hell , it sucks . i just couldnt control my damn tongue from saying ' then ' . i was like 'ran hou..err ran hour .. * then i thought of what to say * then wo men blah blah blah ' . ahh damn . wasted!!! zzz . mr wong commented at the end . " ni zai shuo hua de shi hou bu yao yi zhi suo then . " oh no . Dead . *piang* zz . hope i dont flunk that bad though . HOPE . cause i forgot what's book review in chinese so i said in English .. OOOPS .

had a-maths test yesterday too . ahh crap it . i see wrong value . only at the last moment then i realise . too late . zz . got back the test today and hell , i got that bloody question wrong which means only 21/25 . bleahs . im still behind jyi and munwah when we combine all the test so far . NOO~~~!!!

argh . study study study . better start soon . Final year exam is coming and i have no intention of doing badly . but the prob is eversince the June hols , i havent been concentrating in class , havent been studying , havent been doing well in tests . and that spells trouble for me . woots . Help me ? teach me arh!!

hmm . i dont know what's happening to you, i dont know what's happening to me either . but all i know , if we carry on like this .. nothing good is gonna come out . sigh~ hope the outcome is good ....

oh ya . played ball today after a very very long while . suck at it ready . err . i suck last time also . LOL . hehe . Monday got Bio test . hope postpone cause the OBS peeps are gone . HOPE . heh .

aight . i shall end here for now . lazy to type ready . xD nights people .

~will this be our final goodbye ?

2006-08-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

today was okay . i guess ? nehh . super siian with lessons . as usual ? lol . was like damn tired then still have to attend . zz . oh ya . first thing i went to class , jyi gave me some thing . oh my god! touched . lol . from puayleng, munwah and jyi . supposed to cheer me up . =D dont worry guys! i will try!! thanks for all that care! haha . damn stupid . when jiayi ask me ' gan bu gan dong' i thought she asking me whether dare to touch . haha . wrong interpretation . xD

well , boring lessons soon followed soon after . bleahs . no choice . ahh . then during recess , DRAMA . woots . w_____was like so gonna kill d____ . aiya . should have just whack him silly . please . why show him pity ? he dont deserve it at all . if i were you , i think he would be dead . you can really tolerate it ? please . he's such a jackass . mother fucking attention seeking one .

dont you all think so ? he's just trying to get attention of many people . please ? ugh . how can you all stand it . please . i never could , and i never will . dont you think his actions simply make people feel disgusted ? ahh . i just cant stand it . you just have to resort to every means huh ? knowing everything and telling the whole wide world wont make people think you're great . in actual fact , what they should think is that he's using such despicable mean to get what he want . is that your principle of life ? oh my god . i pity your parents .

what has w_____ done wrong that you have to do this to him ? you think is very funny ? honestly , its a lowdown and cheap method . its dumb . its already invading of one's privacy and mind you , you can be sued . please , do you like people touching your things ? if anyone ever touch yours, you would already whack them . and that, is so ugh . no words can describe . GET A LIFE . cant you even admit it ?

w____ was already like controlling so hard . if he had just let loose , you'd probably be on a bed now . Hospital bed . trust me . i wouldnt stop him even if i know its wrong . why ? simply cause i have no sympathy for you . you dont even deserve the simplest respect . dont be such a bitch . no one gives a damn to that .

okay , and you also just had to implicate others along huh ? you backstabbed someone innocent . someone who merely out of curiosity took a peek and then asked you to keep . does that mean he's your partner in crime ? mind you , he told you to put it back. you did not listen . furthermore , this wasnt the first time huh ? you'd probably touched many other people's stuff . damn . i pity those peeps . pity them for knowing someone like you .

alright , enough of that . today just wasnt my day huh ? everything's screwed up . i've gone geog project to rush . hell . that sucks . also . some stuff . ahh . dunno what's the outcome ? neh . whatever it is . as long as its what you want . im fine . im prepared .

well . tomorrow's another day . another story , another chapter . what awaits me ? no one knows . i just have to walk through . hope everything goes well . nights all .

2006-08-13T22:53:00.000+08:00

typical boring day . well , not that typical lahh . had first aid course what . lmao . how often you do that crap ? not very . cause its a complete waste of time . hmm . started the day off . woke up at 640 . bleahs . go bathe, eat , then use com . used the com till around err . 810 then i left home for tiong . as usual . met those people again . bleahs . hate that .

anyway, called janvin . that ass said he didnt feel like coming thus, dont wanna go lar. diao . its so dumb . he wasted his whole satuday , then in the end dont go for today's one which then he has to pay for the course fees . if he goes , its FREE . abit dimb huh ? typical clown lahh . so the dumb . and i can still remember that he was so enthu and was like keep wanting to come ? so much for that act .

hmm . went to dhoby ghaut . waited for some peeps and we walked to the red cross shit . woots . we are ON TIME . we supposed to be there by 930 . and guess what ? we reach there at 930! woots . -.- bleahs . alot of them were still not there lahh . heh . achievement . lol. well , we started off doing some practical shit on CPR . lmao . so fucking lame . did that dunno how many times . im like gonna have so many certs to prove im certified to give CPR ? woots . bleahs .

hmm . the instructor first tell us the procedures and then how to go about doing the actual thing . half way through his demo , Chio bu came! err . paisehh . forgot her name . only call her chio bu . among ourselves lahh . lol . dam hot can! omg . cant stand it . err .. ahem . okay . sidetracked . lmao . hmm . so upon completion of the demo , he started calling us 1 by 1 to come up to the front and do . i tell you , zao keng to the max! omg . i should have taken the front row instead of side . ahh!! EYE CANDY . woots . anyway . wasted lots of time doing the CPR thingy. when my turn hor , so suay can . dunno why he keep giving so many scenarios . bao ka liao . he keep saying like ' air does not go through ' ( choking ) then i have to do some shit , do CPR . then check for injuries , then the casualty had a injury . omg . its like no one got all bao ka liao . zz . asshole . lol .

after everyone tried , lunch time! woots. was like so fast . heh . cause it wasnt theory . lol . we had 1hr 30mins for lunch ! damn long lahh . we went carls jr for lunch . woo~ damn shiok. the burger was uber big. lmao . we ate finished in 30mins and spent the rest of the time in the damn arcade . lol . dont be mistaken . i didnt play. i WATCHED . heh . time flies , and we went back . on time again! lala~

we carried on with the damn dry stuff . THEORY . zz . hey , but what did ya know ? we had lotsa videos o watch today . wahaha . but damn gruesome . heh . but there was one uber funny scene . lmao . that damn casualty was drunked , had a deep cut on his forehead . they had to stitch that shit up . they put some thing over his face to cover it cept the wound . sew it up . during the process he was spouting lotsa nonsense like 'would you marry me ?' 'would you like to have an affair? ' . LMAO! then when they stiching was done , he was saying ' i cant see ! i cant see! ' . when the nurse removed it , hilarious! he said ' oh oh oh oh my god! i can see again! ' . WAHAHA . you must LISTEN and watch his actions . hhaa .

after those videos , DOCUMENTARY. snake bites mahh . so let us watch videos on snake . lol ? as if it makes a difference . lol . then some shit theory and we were released at errr . 530+ ? around there bahh . tooka bus home and viola . home sweet home at last . next sat is the freaking test . please dont fail, i dont wanna pay the money . T.T

hmm . putting that aside, i realised some things i didnt know happen . lots of things had already happen . im just so blind to even notice such stuff huh ? or is i because im just kept in the dark ? i think thats happening . bleahs . i honestly dont mind . i've gotten used to it anyway . no one really cares huh ? bleahs . whatever .

i'm just an irritating pest in search of some company . even when i think i found one , im afraid that i will be a nuisance to them . they may say im not . but hell , who really knows what they're really thinking . sigh . i'm just so unsecure huh ? i don't know who i can really trust anymore . sigh .

things arent getting better anywhere . not in my social circle , love life , studies etc. every single thing just starts to worsen day by day , second by second. what's up with this ? is God playing a fool with me ? aww , give me a break . thats enough . hmm . i really do not know what to do now . everything seems to be worsening . i dunno who i can find for help ? haixx . there are options but , its like i dunno if i should ? better not take that risk . i dont wanna lose a friend .

to add on to my ' wonderful ' life . my damn bro never seems to understand . he just plays and plays non stop . cant he tell when my dad's gonna blow his top ? darn it . continue like this and i've got to say sayonara to my net . sigh . and just because he cant play, he complains to my dad that i used till super late in the night . and then , im gonna get it from him . wth . that's total bullshit .

aight .. enough of that problem talk . no one bothers anyway . better go now . before my dad comes in and rails at me for something that i did not do . bleahs . nights . school's on tmr and i didnt even have a good weekend break to sleep in or rest . sigh . what a life ..

~lost cause

2006-08-12T23:22:00.000+08:00

damn i hate BB nowadays . argh . all of them keep giving me lame excuses to not go parades or activities . what the hell . even if ms kang is dumb enough to believe , IM NOT . ugh . whatever . im lost for words . zzz .

alright . had some first aid course today at Red cross there . woots . funny like crap lahh . but also very siian . all learn before ready . diaoo . its's like go there waste time lor . im just going there because of the stupid cert which then enables me to get mybadge . zz . what's the use of a stupid cert which certifies me as a first aider ? come on man . i dont think i will need something like that . zz .

haix . guess tmr i have to go and meet some of the peeps to bring them to the red cross shit place again . zzz . wouldnt it be better if they went there themselves since i brought them there today ? taking a bus straight from my house is so much nearer then taking to tiong first . zz . waste of time and money ( although its a few cents ) . another 9-6 tmr . lala~ bleahs .

at this rate , im not gonna have any free day for myself . cant sleep in or anything . mon-friday got school and sat got BB . sunday is the only time but most of the sundays, i have to get up early for some things or another . crap . what a life im living . boo . but it isnt that bad huh ? who knows .

hmm . just notice some things today bout the peeps around me . lots of things that was suppose to be over but its back . maybe it didnt even ended in the first place huh ? no one tells me anything , so why bother ? lol . even the close friends i have since sec2 dont even see me as there anymore ? im just some other guy you see around in singapore huh ? man . i've gotten used to this already .

aight , i'll stop here for now . getting tired of the same old shit that i have . nights people .

~im all alone

2006-08-10T22:50:00.000+08:00

hmm . im mentally tired , im psychologically tired . i've lost my sense of priorities in life . ahh god damn it . why cant i set things straight ? why cant i set things right ? is this a never ending chain of trouble? i dunno . but oh god, SOS .

hmm . let's see . i've things yet to be done . and to hell with it , i dont feel like going school tmr . super boring . what can i do ? that's life man . study , study , study . anyone ever wondered what's life all about ? you study so hard to get to good sec school . then you study like mad to go JC / poly . then study like mad go university . after uni, find a good job . work like hell to earn money and then for what? earn to retire ? abit dumb right ? zzz . i just see no point in living . anyone share the same sentiments ? lol ..

okay . it's getting late and i have yet to touch my amaths hmework . gosh . why can i just freakin do it . argh . im just having my hands full doing other stuff huh ? bleahs . im really exhausted . like i said . not physically ..

God Damn It .

~save me please ?

2006-07-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder, if one day i really die , who will really remember me ? who will care bout me ? who will ever find that life feels different ? or maybe , will anyone even know that im gone ? maybe ? most likely not . im just a gone case ..

~living in seclusion

2006-07-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

okay . today was kinda fun . lol . really laugh like crazy huh . heh . watch movie . walk walk . and we were supposed to study . lmao . anyway , wasn't really enjoying bahh .. just feel that , my life kinda stinks .. find it kinda boring . i feel so siian to do things nowadays and i have no idea why . sigh . no choice huh ? part and parcel of life ? it seems like im the only one affected . im lonely . im left alone . im not significant . im not of any value . ugh . whatever . thats just me ..

~living in seclusion

2006-07-29T23:20:00.000+08:00

okay . have been feeling rather crappy this week . just wasn't feeling great . was kinda like , siian , dunno what to do . like very pek chek . seems like wanna explode . its like , you wanna do his yet you dont want . you wanna go somewhere and yet you dont feel like . dont have the mood for homework, studies . not even games or playing ball . what the hell is happening ? zz . i lose my cool easily, and that is so not good . it's gonna start affecting people around me and that i what i hate the most . argh . god damn it . why cant i be what i used to be ? im so left out . stranded , nothing to save me . im gonna be like that .. figured that out yah ? finally woken up to that cold hard truth .

~reality hurts

2006-07-23T22:52:00.000+08:00

22 july 2006, Saturday

woke up at 530am . wth . suppose to meet SOMEONE for breakfast . then in the end cancelled . zz . nehh mind . went back to sleep . set alarm at 6. in the end got up at 630 . omg . like so late ?! supposed to meet at 7 . chiong go bathe and reached in time . heng . okay okay . skip the details . took part in the Heritage race . Fun On Foot or something . started off at 9 ? should be bahh .then hor . chiong lor . skip those things. the only thing that i wanna highlight is that Mr Tnia was like super enthu ? everytime navigate until reach check point i would go ' eh . zhao peng, your favourite [ which is to answer the questions ] " . the next moment , he will thing the answer booklet and chiong towards the questions board . woots . at least we dont need to answer . lala~ skip skip skip . ending point! finally ended . not much people . mostly from educational section . we like , the first few ' corporate ' peeps to arrive . but . when the fcking awards come , we didnt get nuts . i think is our questions never answer correctly lor . aiya . heck . what can we do ? we competing with ADULTS lehh . we didnt sign up under EDUCATIONAL institutes . hehe . for that , great achievement . wahaha . bleahs . in the end still never win -.- crap . at least faster then jeremy's group . somemore before race start can boast that they plan the route liao -.- and he also said ' may the best man win ' . bleahs . crap .

23 july 2006, Sunday

woots!! had fun today worr . went watch movie at Plaza sing first . watch the .. err . cant remember what . so-so only . then took bus to east coast park . suppose go there one . then in the end changed to jalan jalan in ParkwayParade . YaY~ ate lots of sweets . ate lots of food . gonna be fat . omg . bought new slippers too . [ finally got my slippers ] wahha . enjoyed myself so much wor!!

~ Happy Anniversary . =D

2006-07-19T00:04:00.000+08:00

haix . my life really stinks . i dont have any real friends do I ? heard some things bahh . dunno if it's true ? hmm . the friends i have , some of them , they wanna like just to maybe err ... because i can help them in something ? or maybe when bored that time i will accompany them ? yeah .. that kind . whatever . im lonely to begin with .. doesnt really matter . the thing is , i cant stand the fact that im like treating like something . in a way which is to get it for an advantage . for example , i wanna be friends with xxx . whenever he asks me go play or whatever , i would go . why ? cos he can coach me in studies . so must go with xxx or not he/she will not teach me . haixx . i dont like that ? who can i pour out my sorrows to ? do i have anyone really reliable , trustworthy ? i guess noT ? i dunno . im so lost . studies , im getting worse , socially deproving . zzz . friends are already starting to badmouth me . lol . whatever bahhs . doesnt matter . im numbed by these stuff . it's all part of a fuc*ed up life . it's a package .

~my sorrows are bottled up in me

2006-07-16T22:24:00.000+08:00

day by day , my life gets more and more crappy . the never ending list of things to be done . will it ever end ? the torture of having so much things to do . i can't catch up with that pace . it's just too hectic . i have no freedom . my life seems controlled . am i just a mere puppet being controlled ? when will that strings that are attached to me ever gets cut off . when will this puppet be able to move on its own accord ? when..? i guess that day will not arrive till a long time later .. my net , when will it ever be fixed? im like a trapped being . i cant go out to do things . you want me to stay home . fine . what can i say . you are the BIG SHOT after all . but , i cant even use the internet properly . woots ? is it my fuc*ing fault that my bro dont wanna study ? so what if i push him . with his attitude , you think that will work ? thats too naive of you . haix . crap it . i get jealous whenever my friends stay out late . i get jealous whenever they seem to enjoy using the net . why cant that happen to me ? haix . im running short of cash . im having a cash flow prob . bleahs . stinking life . enough of that .. well .. played ball today. kinda fun ? whatever . no mood to talk bout anything . cya around . lotsa things to do . and hell , there's geog tmr . argh . fuc* off .

2006-07-14T22:23:00.000+08:00

what do you really want me to do before i get my freedom ? is it really wrong ? argh . i cant take this shit anymore . you used to tell me ' get good results first then say lahh ' . im fine with it . i did well and so ? does what you say make any sense at all ? i merely just want that spare bit of time to do my own stuff . everyday is just study study study . after school , extra lessons or cca . even if i dont have such activities , go tiong makan then study or do homework . then i would just go play ball . cant i even play damn fuc*king ball ? whats wrong with that ? it is EXERCISE . you'd rather me hang out at some stupid arcades or LAN shops wasting my time away ? isn't it good that im doing something more construtive ? okay , maybe it's my fault that im home too lat e . but , at least you know what im doing and where i am . what's the point of studying so hard if that's the fuck*ing case ? you study like one mad fuc*er , trying so hard to get what you want . in the end , what you want is not what you're gonna get . you're just gonna get told off for doing something thats not really wrong . i dont see the point . you want me to come home ? but if im home , what can i do ? stare at the computer , spoil my eyes and waste time ? kinda like not constructive ? argh . whatever . so what if i get 2 full marks ? does it make a fuc*ing difference in my life ? okay . you may say that you do something not to get something in return but to do it because you wanna do it . but , my point is , can i get the freedom i want ? is it really that wrong for doing that ? even if i go out to study and sort of got too engrossed in studying and get home late i still get crap . what's wrong with STUDYING ? isn't that what you want ? argh . i dont see a point in my life . life itself is kinda meaningless to begin with . you fuc*ing study like mad , to get a good job . once you get a good job, you slog like one madass and whats the point ? zz . forget it . life in unfair . haix . im just like a bird stuck in the cage , never ever will i come out .

will things be better?
~trapped

2006-07-04T21:57:00.000+08:00

woots ! net again . shiok . zz . my dad still dun wanna get me a net connection . all my bro's fault . dad say he play too much lor . zz . sibei siian . anyways , amaths sucks . zz . today go do the hols homework with munwah . fcking difficult lor . zz . bo bian . who ask me hols nehh study . regret . nevermind . wait till finished all the homework liao then start to study again . needs lotsa practice if not sure mati . zz . hmm . bored at home . dunno what to do . want to study , no one to study with ? zz . whatever . off to do my amaths . or maybe slack around . cya ..

2006-07-02T13:12:00.000+08:00

woots . im connected to the net again . couldnt go online for the past week .
bored like #$*& . haha . anyways , nothing much to say . pia homework week ? lol . bo bian . school's started and i didnt finish my homework . zz .anyway , bb ytd was terrible sia . those 35j [zhangde primary ] kids came for games . kao . the p2s i was incharge of hor , super the buay tahan . thye keep falling down one . must run here run there . get first aid kit , apply for them . zzz . anyway . enough of that . NCO meeting was next . and i had a crappy agenda . nevermind . i survived that . woots . heng wor . mr kang was in a good mood ? never shout . what a miricle sia . and that stupid janvin pon . xD anyway . 2hr 45mins of meeting . siianzzzzzzz . went queensway to buy my shoe with wilson and zhaopeng . woot . broke liao . T.T anyway . cya . hope i get my internet fixed soon .

2006-06-24T10:19:00.000+08:00

okay . im still sick and my homework still undone . gosh im screwed .

2006-06-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

just back from the docs . zz . High fever wor . 39.3 . zz . im not gonna complete my homework this way . zz . Dead .

2006-06-22T10:31:00.000+08:00

haix . fell sick again yesterday . that sucks man . when my flu , cough and sore throat was about to recover , everything came back !! ahh!! zz . now having a fever . 38.6 worrs. zzz . got a bad bad throat . cough like mad . everytime i cough my sides hurt . ugh . nose running like mad sia . bleahs . how to finish homework like that!! ahh~~ anyone can lend me copy mrs tay hols assignment ? i need that if not im gonna fail my test!! ahh~

falling sick sucks big time.

2006-06-12T22:48:00.000+08:00

bleahs . i'm sick . what more can i say? zz . off for rehabilitation [if it's spelt like that ] . cya .

hate falling sick .

2006-06-10T22:46:00.000+08:00

had BB wild wild wet excursion today . fun wor! woots . didnt want to go at first one . xD anyway . my ' alarm' rang at err . i think 715? hah . not sure lahh . but then i still sleeping like pig . oink! xD . anyways . got woken up by my mum at 8 . lucky sia . if not sure late . then went bathe lor . pack bag then zhao out of the house le . then waited for bus . board the bus , say wils . then talk to him . the first thing he said was ' eh ? so early arh ' . followed by ' actually hor , the thing suppose to reach sch at 930 leh ' . wtf??! he told me 9 ? cb . if not i still sleeping in bed de . zzz. nevermind . reach sch lor . then forgot consent form . shit sia . then that miss kang come down . wth is her problem sia ? she super noisy can ?? bo dai zi also cos of her got dai zi lor . she always starts all the problem but she keeps saying that wee bb boys no discipline wor . nabeii . then kao pei finish, go www lor . reach there , then she starts to give her ' speech ' again . zzz . waste my time sia . wanna go in one lehh . finally went in , wasted time again , talk bout lockers and top up card . cant they ever decide ? zz . then me wils and jan down there wanna go in they still talking . zz . heck . we go stll must split to grps . -.- bleahs . whatever . we finally went in. went to the shiok river first , or rather , lazy river . cos we lazy mahh . xD . then we played the ular lar . woots. damn fun can . we went a few time . actually cos the girl pushing us down quite hot ? lmao . no lahh . cos its really fun . hah . after playing , we went to the.. err . i forgot .. nehh mind . but we played the slide up . wth sia . that sucks lor . went up . got in . then wilson's turn . he was like trying to get in the saying 'how to get in arh ? ' then he kicked my **** . cb sia!! pain lehh . whatever. the n go down . fucking scary . but nice . hehe . saddistic . lmao . the went the err . tsunami . wave thingy . fun fun . rape my junior . woots . xD . then play the yakult thingy . then wils spotted a group of chio bu . woots . wanted to get number but in the end never . xD . but they hot lehh . too bad lor . then played a while more then have to go . we bathed then went eat BK . then went back sch . after that, eug's mother kindly send me jan and wils to queensway . we went there to see shoes . woot s. saw alot nice ones . i want the nike delta force haze . nice sia . then home sweet home . woots . hope im tanner now . =X

2006-06-07T12:32:00.000+08:00

back from SL camp . yesterday . it was fun . maybe only for the SLs ? haha . anyway . this is basically what happened .

Day One , 5th june, Monday .

First day of the camp . SLs had to report in school at 645am . according to Mr Tnia . zz . met up with him at tiong . he came late as always . walked to school . when we arrived , lots of them were already there . lol . anyway , we went to put our bags and then the camp started . we went to the arena to meet the group of sec2 leaders . split them into their groups and they went to put their belongings in their sleeping places for the night . started the camp off with ice breakers . then they had some stuff with Mr Lim . following that , team building activities and lunch . after lunch , we changed into our track pants and set off for High Elements rope course . there, we could see who were really afraid of heights . we were there for a few hours and then headed back to school . they bathed , had thier dinner and went for more stuff with Mr Lim . after that was the most fun part of the camp to me . NIGHT TRAIL . woots . haha . they were supposed to move in pairs to complete this trail which was to see how courageous they be . some of them were not afraid but majority were . me and steph were supposed to be at the 2nd floor throwing water ballons down at them . but after awhile , it started to bore us so we decided to go up to the 4th floor boys toilet to help safwan and poh gek out . FUN lahh!! haha . the toilet lights were turned off and there were two candles inside . they were suppose to walk in to see the clue . woots . me and steph and hid in the cubicle . before they entered the toilet, they were supposed to say their name, ic number and their purpose of going in . they were already freaked out by then . they went in and looked at the clue . before they left, me and steph would slam the toilet door shut and screams could be heard . woots . had a great time . xD after the night trail was supper and we had a treat from Mr Lim . PIZZA!! haha . the SLs ate at the arena and then went for our long awaited bath . we then returned to our sleeping places . however, the guys area was kinda having a party? lol . played there then after awhile i slept . woots . xD

Day Two, 6th june, Tuesday .

second day of camp . woke up at 6am . brushed up and went down to help Mr Lim with breakfast . ultimately, he didnt need help . anyway . we then went to draw 100 squares for the game . haha . after drawing the squares, some of us started to personalise some of the squares as their ' own ' . lol . we then played some games . then was lunch . after lunch , the sec2 leaders had more stuff with Mr Lim . xD we had alot free time . haha . we were really wild and mad during this periods . woots . haha . you get to see the crazier side of us . hah . i love my sultan!! xD he was really a joker during this period in camp . haha . wouldnt it be nice if we had a camp again with these group of SLs and maybe a new batch of leaders ? that would be nice . =)

anyways , after the camp ended , we went to tiong to makan . we the headed home after makaning while angeline, zhaopeng, safwan and cheryl went to watch omen . upon reaching home , went to bathe , used the com awhile and then watched tv . was practically stoning in front of the tv . xD haha . went to bed soon after .

i love camps .

we started off by seeing this . =)

olympic lightsticks ! woots . during the night trail .

guess who's sleeping ? xD janvin = pig . =X

art by steph . SLs' 06 =)