day by day , my life gets more and more crappy . the never ending list of things to be done . will it ever end ? the torture of having so much things to do . i can't catch up with that pace . it's just too hectic . i have no freedom . my life seems controlled . am i just a mere puppet being controlled ? when will that strings that are attached to me ever gets cut off . when will this puppet be able to move on its own accord ? when..? i guess that day will not arrive till a long time later .. my net , when will it ever be fixed? im like a trapped being . i cant go out to do things . you want me to stay home . fine . what can i say . you are the BIG SHOT after all . but , i cant even use the internet properly . woots ? is it my fuc*ing fault that my bro dont wanna study ? so what if i push him . with his attitude , you think that will work ? thats too naive of you . haix . crap it . i get jealous whenever my friends stay out late . i get jealous whenever they seem to enjoy using the net . why cant that happen to me ? haix . im running short of cash . im having a cash flow prob . bleahs . stinking life . enough of that .. well .. played ball today. kinda fun ? whatever . no mood to talk bout anything . cya around . lotsa things to do . and hell , there's geog tmr . argh . fuc* off .