sigh~ aint in a good mood now . ms huang's gone and all . sigh . its like we didnt even make her feel welcomed? man , this sucks . yeah yeah , im getting emo and all . bleahs . so what . zzz . i'll blog again later , HOPEFULLY . sigh~
Thursday, August 31, 2006
Friday, August 25, 2006
hmm . im blogging after a long long time huh ? well , lots of things happened during this period . but well , dont wish to say too much . emo ? bleahs . crap that shit .
munwah's been really bust this week . writing his 10000 sorries . poor chap . he's spend all his free time writing that . during free periods , he writes that . after school , he goes home to write that or hang around andwrite that . he even sacrificed playing basketball . omg . what a nice guy . hope lin qian appreciates ?
great . my amaths CA really like crap . 3 tests , i get crap . 40/40 , 10/20 , 21/25 . damn . im still behing munwah, jyi , chi jie . all because of that damned linear law . omg 1o marks lahh . zzz . and guess what . its not only my amaths . my EL also crappy though i cant rememeberd the marks . zzz . im gonna screw my FYE and its just a month away? damn .
havent been in the mood lately , feeling sad and all . better no elaborate too much bout that or ppl gonna start saying emo-kid or whatever . but its the truth right . what you expect me to do . zzz . hmm . things are not getting better or the both of us eh ? will things stay this way? or is the end really nearing? what am i to do ? im lost . nothing i do seems right to you anymore . sigh~
enough of that stuff , played ball for 5 and a half hour today lahh! woots . 2- 730 . finally after so long . at first we started off with like very little people . then it increased , and then they left , 2 came, 3 left . zzz. and the OBS peeps are back! woots . finally . class been quiet without them .anyway, we played till 730 lor . and , i was like damn sad today ? dunno why . i was just going bonkers till i kept joking around. zzz . the blasted ball whack my specs and it gave me a huge cut . argh .
aight , i dunno what to say no more . just hope everything else turns out right which , obviously, will not . ciao .
~damnit .
munwah's been really bust this week . writing his 10000 sorries . poor chap . he's spend all his free time writing that . during free periods , he writes that . after school , he goes home to write that or hang around andwrite that . he even sacrificed playing basketball . omg . what a nice guy . hope lin qian appreciates ?
great . my amaths CA really like crap . 3 tests , i get crap . 40/40 , 10/20 , 21/25 . damn . im still behing munwah, jyi , chi jie . all because of that damned linear law . omg 1o marks lahh . zzz . and guess what . its not only my amaths . my EL also crappy though i cant rememeberd the marks . zzz . im gonna screw my FYE and its just a month away? damn .
havent been in the mood lately , feeling sad and all . better no elaborate too much bout that or ppl gonna start saying emo-kid or whatever . but its the truth right . what you expect me to do . zzz . hmm . things are not getting better or the both of us eh ? will things stay this way? or is the end really nearing? what am i to do ? im lost . nothing i do seems right to you anymore . sigh~
enough of that stuff , played ball for 5 and a half hour today lahh! woots . 2- 730 . finally after so long . at first we started off with like very little people . then it increased , and then they left , 2 came, 3 left . zzz. and the OBS peeps are back! woots . finally . class been quiet without them .anyway, we played till 730 lor . and , i was like damn sad today ? dunno why . i was just going bonkers till i kept joking around. zzz . the blasted ball whack my specs and it gave me a huge cut . argh .
aight , i dunno what to say no more . just hope everything else turns out right which , obviously, will not . ciao .
~damnit .
Friday, August 18, 2006
sigh . there's first aid test tmr . argh . damn lazy go take that stupid test lahh . zzz . still must wake up so early . zzz . whatever . its better than paying ms kang the money for NOT going . woots . lmao . hope i remember how to do those stupid bandages which i dont find very useful . eh , wait . i dont even find them of ANY use .
alright , school's been crappy the whole damn week . had some chinese crap oral yesterday and hell , it sucks . i just couldnt control my damn tongue from saying ' then ' . i was like 'ran hou..err ran hour .. * then i thought of what to say * then wo men blah blah blah ' . ahh damn . wasted!!! zzz . mr wong commented at the end . " ni zai shuo hua de shi hou bu yao yi zhi suo then . " oh no . Dead . *piang* zz . hope i dont flunk that bad though . HOPE . cause i forgot what's book review in chinese so i said in English .. OOOPS .
had a-maths test yesterday too . ahh crap it . i see wrong value . only at the last moment then i realise . too late . zz . got back the test today and hell , i got that bloody question wrong which means only 21/25 . bleahs . im still behind jyi and munwah when we combine all the test so far . NOO~~~!!!
argh . study study study . better start soon . Final year exam is coming and i have no intention of doing badly . but the prob is eversince the June hols , i havent been concentrating in class , havent been studying , havent been doing well in tests . and that spells trouble for me . woots . Help me ? teach me arh!!
hmm . i dont know what's happening to you, i dont know what's happening to me either . but all i know , if we carry on like this .. nothing good is gonna come out . sigh~ hope the outcome is good ....
oh ya . played ball today after a very very long while . suck at it ready . err . i suck last time also . LOL . hehe . Monday got Bio test . hope postpone cause the OBS peeps are gone . HOPE . heh .
aight . i shall end here for now . lazy to type ready . xD nights people .
~will this be our final goodbye ?
alright , school's been crappy the whole damn week . had some chinese crap oral yesterday and hell , it sucks . i just couldnt control my damn tongue from saying ' then ' . i was like 'ran hou..err ran hour .. * then i thought of what to say * then wo men blah blah blah ' . ahh damn . wasted!!! zzz . mr wong commented at the end . " ni zai shuo hua de shi hou bu yao yi zhi suo then . " oh no . Dead . *piang* zz . hope i dont flunk that bad though . HOPE . cause i forgot what's book review in chinese so i said in English .. OOOPS .
had a-maths test yesterday too . ahh crap it . i see wrong value . only at the last moment then i realise . too late . zz . got back the test today and hell , i got that bloody question wrong which means only 21/25 . bleahs . im still behind jyi and munwah when we combine all the test so far . NOO~~~!!!
argh . study study study . better start soon . Final year exam is coming and i have no intention of doing badly . but the prob is eversince the June hols , i havent been concentrating in class , havent been studying , havent been doing well in tests . and that spells trouble for me . woots . Help me ? teach me arh!!
hmm . i dont know what's happening to you, i dont know what's happening to me either . but all i know , if we carry on like this .. nothing good is gonna come out . sigh~ hope the outcome is good ....
oh ya . played ball today after a very very long while . suck at it ready . err . i suck last time also . LOL . hehe . Monday got Bio test . hope postpone cause the OBS peeps are gone . HOPE . heh .
aight . i shall end here for now . lazy to type ready . xD nights people .
~will this be our final goodbye ?
Monday, August 14, 2006
today was okay . i guess ? nehh . super siian with lessons . as usual ? lol . was like damn tired then still have to attend . zz . oh ya . first thing i went to class , jyi gave me some thing . oh my god! touched . lol . from puayleng, munwah and jyi . supposed to cheer me up . =D dont worry guys! i will try!! thanks for all that care! haha . damn stupid . when jiayi ask me ' gan bu gan dong' i thought she asking me whether dare to touch . haha . wrong interpretation . xD
well , boring lessons soon followed soon after . bleahs . no choice . ahh . then during recess , DRAMA . woots . w_____was like so gonna kill d____ . aiya . should have just whack him silly . please . why show him pity ? he dont deserve it at all . if i were you , i think he would be dead . you can really tolerate it ? please . he's such a jackass . mother fucking attention seeking one .
dont you all think so ? he's just trying to get attention of many people . please ? ugh . how can you all stand it . please . i never could , and i never will . dont you think his actions simply make people feel disgusted ? ahh . i just cant stand it . you just have to resort to every means huh ? knowing everything and telling the whole wide world wont make people think you're great . in actual fact , what they should think is that he's using such despicable mean to get what he want . is that your principle of life ? oh my god . i pity your parents .
what has w_____ done wrong that you have to do this to him ? you think is very funny ? honestly , its a lowdown and cheap method . its dumb . its already invading of one's privacy and mind you , you can be sued . please , do you like people touching your things ? if anyone ever touch yours, you would already whack them . and that, is so ugh . no words can describe . GET A LIFE . cant you even admit it ?
w____ was already like controlling so hard . if he had just let loose , you'd probably be on a bed now . Hospital bed . trust me . i wouldnt stop him even if i know its wrong . why ? simply cause i have no sympathy for you . you dont even deserve the simplest respect . dont be such a bitch . no one gives a damn to that .
okay , and you also just had to implicate others along huh ? you backstabbed someone innocent . someone who merely out of curiosity took a peek and then asked you to keep . does that mean he's your partner in crime ? mind you , he told you to put it back. you did not listen . furthermore , this wasnt the first time huh ? you'd probably touched many other people's stuff . damn . i pity those peeps . pity them for knowing someone like you .
alright , enough of that . today just wasnt my day huh ? everything's screwed up . i've gone geog project to rush . hell . that sucks . also . some stuff . ahh . dunno what's the outcome ? neh . whatever it is . as long as its what you want . im fine . im prepared .
well . tomorrow's another day . another story , another chapter . what awaits me ? no one knows . i just have to walk through . hope everything goes well . nights all .
well , boring lessons soon followed soon after . bleahs . no choice . ahh . then during recess , DRAMA . woots . w_____was like so gonna kill d____ . aiya . should have just whack him silly . please . why show him pity ? he dont deserve it at all . if i were you , i think he would be dead . you can really tolerate it ? please . he's such a jackass . mother fucking attention seeking one .
dont you all think so ? he's just trying to get attention of many people . please ? ugh . how can you all stand it . please . i never could , and i never will . dont you think his actions simply make people feel disgusted ? ahh . i just cant stand it . you just have to resort to every means huh ? knowing everything and telling the whole wide world wont make people think you're great . in actual fact , what they should think is that he's using such despicable mean to get what he want . is that your principle of life ? oh my god . i pity your parents .
what has w_____ done wrong that you have to do this to him ? you think is very funny ? honestly , its a lowdown and cheap method . its dumb . its already invading of one's privacy and mind you , you can be sued . please , do you like people touching your things ? if anyone ever touch yours, you would already whack them . and that, is so ugh . no words can describe . GET A LIFE . cant you even admit it ?
w____ was already like controlling so hard . if he had just let loose , you'd probably be on a bed now . Hospital bed . trust me . i wouldnt stop him even if i know its wrong . why ? simply cause i have no sympathy for you . you dont even deserve the simplest respect . dont be such a bitch . no one gives a damn to that .
okay , and you also just had to implicate others along huh ? you backstabbed someone innocent . someone who merely out of curiosity took a peek and then asked you to keep . does that mean he's your partner in crime ? mind you , he told you to put it back. you did not listen . furthermore , this wasnt the first time huh ? you'd probably touched many other people's stuff . damn . i pity those peeps . pity them for knowing someone like you .
alright , enough of that . today just wasnt my day huh ? everything's screwed up . i've gone geog project to rush . hell . that sucks . also . some stuff . ahh . dunno what's the outcome ? neh . whatever it is . as long as its what you want . im fine . im prepared .
well . tomorrow's another day . another story , another chapter . what awaits me ? no one knows . i just have to walk through . hope everything goes well . nights all .
Sunday, August 13, 2006
typical boring day . well , not that typical lahh . had first aid course what . lmao . how often you do that crap ? not very . cause its a complete waste of time . hmm . started the day off . woke up at 640 . bleahs . go bathe, eat , then use com . used the com till around err . 810 then i left home for tiong . as usual . met those people again . bleahs . hate that .
anyway, called janvin . that ass said he didnt feel like coming thus, dont wanna go lar. diao . its so dumb . he wasted his whole satuday , then in the end dont go for today's one which then he has to pay for the course fees . if he goes , its FREE . abit dimb huh ? typical clown lahh . so the dumb . and i can still remember that he was so enthu and was like keep wanting to come ? so much for that act .
hmm . went to dhoby ghaut . waited for some peeps and we walked to the red cross shit . woots . we are ON TIME . we supposed to be there by 930 . and guess what ? we reach there at 930! woots . -.- bleahs . alot of them were still not there lahh . heh . achievement . lol. well , we started off doing some practical shit on CPR . lmao . so fucking lame . did that dunno how many times . im like gonna have so many certs to prove im certified to give CPR ? woots . bleahs .
hmm . the instructor first tell us the procedures and then how to go about doing the actual thing . half way through his demo , Chio bu came! err . paisehh . forgot her name . only call her chio bu . among ourselves lahh . lol . dam hot can! omg . cant stand it . err .. ahem . okay . sidetracked . lmao . hmm . so upon completion of the demo , he started calling us 1 by 1 to come up to the front and do . i tell you , zao keng to the max! omg . i should have taken the front row instead of side . ahh!! EYE CANDY . woots . anyway . wasted lots of time doing the CPR thingy. when my turn hor , so suay can . dunno why he keep giving so many scenarios . bao ka liao . he keep saying like ' air does not go through ' ( choking ) then i have to do some shit , do CPR . then check for injuries , then the casualty had a injury . omg . its like no one got all bao ka liao . zz . asshole . lol .
after everyone tried , lunch time! woots. was like so fast . heh . cause it wasnt theory . lol . we had 1hr 30mins for lunch ! damn long lahh . we went carls jr for lunch . woo~ damn shiok. the burger was uber big. lmao . we ate finished in 30mins and spent the rest of the time in the damn arcade . lol . dont be mistaken . i didnt play. i WATCHED . heh . time flies , and we went back . on time again! lala~
we carried on with the damn dry stuff . THEORY . zz . hey , but what did ya know ? we had lotsa videos o watch today . wahaha . but damn gruesome . heh . but there was one uber funny scene . lmao . that damn casualty was drunked , had a deep cut on his forehead . they had to stitch that shit up . they put some thing over his face to cover it cept the wound . sew it up . during the process he was spouting lotsa nonsense like 'would you marry me ?' 'would you like to have an affair? ' . LMAO! then when they stiching was done , he was saying ' i cant see ! i cant see! ' . when the nurse removed it , hilarious! he said ' oh oh oh oh my god! i can see again! ' . WAHAHA . you must LISTEN and watch his actions . hhaa .
after those videos , DOCUMENTARY. snake bites mahh . so let us watch videos on snake . lol ? as if it makes a difference . lol . then some shit theory and we were released at errr . 530+ ? around there bahh . tooka bus home and viola . home sweet home at last . next sat is the freaking test . please dont fail, i dont wanna pay the money . T.T
hmm . putting that aside, i realised some things i didnt know happen . lots of things had already happen . im just so blind to even notice such stuff huh ? or is i because im just kept in the dark ? i think thats happening . bleahs . i honestly dont mind . i've gotten used to it anyway . no one really cares huh ? bleahs . whatever .
i'm just an irritating pest in search of some company . even when i think i found one , im afraid that i will be a nuisance to them . they may say im not . but hell , who really knows what they're really thinking . sigh . i'm just so unsecure huh ? i don't know who i can really trust anymore . sigh .
things arent getting better anywhere . not in my social circle , love life , studies etc. every single thing just starts to worsen day by day , second by second. what's up with this ? is God playing a fool with me ? aww , give me a break . thats enough . hmm . i really do not know what to do now . everything seems to be worsening . i dunno who i can find for help ? haixx . there are options but , its like i dunno if i should ? better not take that risk . i dont wanna lose a friend .
to add on to my ' wonderful ' life . my damn bro never seems to understand . he just plays and plays non stop . cant he tell when my dad's gonna blow his top ? darn it . continue like this and i've got to say sayonara to my net . sigh . and just because he cant play, he complains to my dad that i used till super late in the night . and then , im gonna get it from him . wth . that's total bullshit .
aight .. enough of that problem talk . no one bothers anyway . better go now . before my dad comes in and rails at me for something that i did not do . bleahs . nights . school's on tmr and i didnt even have a good weekend break to sleep in or rest . sigh . what a life ..
~lost cause
anyway, called janvin . that ass said he didnt feel like coming thus, dont wanna go lar. diao . its so dumb . he wasted his whole satuday , then in the end dont go for today's one which then he has to pay for the course fees . if he goes , its FREE . abit dimb huh ? typical clown lahh . so the dumb . and i can still remember that he was so enthu and was like keep wanting to come ? so much for that act .
hmm . went to dhoby ghaut . waited for some peeps and we walked to the red cross shit . woots . we are ON TIME . we supposed to be there by 930 . and guess what ? we reach there at 930! woots . -.- bleahs . alot of them were still not there lahh . heh . achievement . lol. well , we started off doing some practical shit on CPR . lmao . so fucking lame . did that dunno how many times . im like gonna have so many certs to prove im certified to give CPR ? woots . bleahs .
hmm . the instructor first tell us the procedures and then how to go about doing the actual thing . half way through his demo , Chio bu came! err . paisehh . forgot her name . only call her chio bu . among ourselves lahh . lol . dam hot can! omg . cant stand it . err .. ahem . okay . sidetracked . lmao . hmm . so upon completion of the demo , he started calling us 1 by 1 to come up to the front and do . i tell you , zao keng to the max! omg . i should have taken the front row instead of side . ahh!! EYE CANDY . woots . anyway . wasted lots of time doing the CPR thingy. when my turn hor , so suay can . dunno why he keep giving so many scenarios . bao ka liao . he keep saying like ' air does not go through ' ( choking ) then i have to do some shit , do CPR . then check for injuries , then the casualty had a injury . omg . its like no one got all bao ka liao . zz . asshole . lol .
after everyone tried , lunch time! woots. was like so fast . heh . cause it wasnt theory . lol . we had 1hr 30mins for lunch ! damn long lahh . we went carls jr for lunch . woo~ damn shiok. the burger was uber big. lmao . we ate finished in 30mins and spent the rest of the time in the damn arcade . lol . dont be mistaken . i didnt play. i WATCHED . heh . time flies , and we went back . on time again! lala~
we carried on with the damn dry stuff . THEORY . zz . hey , but what did ya know ? we had lotsa videos o watch today . wahaha . but damn gruesome . heh . but there was one uber funny scene . lmao . that damn casualty was drunked , had a deep cut on his forehead . they had to stitch that shit up . they put some thing over his face to cover it cept the wound . sew it up . during the process he was spouting lotsa nonsense like 'would you marry me ?' 'would you like to have an affair? ' . LMAO! then when they stiching was done , he was saying ' i cant see ! i cant see! ' . when the nurse removed it , hilarious! he said ' oh oh oh oh my god! i can see again! ' . WAHAHA . you must LISTEN and watch his actions . hhaa .
after those videos , DOCUMENTARY. snake bites mahh . so let us watch videos on snake . lol ? as if it makes a difference . lol . then some shit theory and we were released at errr . 530+ ? around there bahh . tooka bus home and viola . home sweet home at last . next sat is the freaking test . please dont fail, i dont wanna pay the money . T.T
hmm . putting that aside, i realised some things i didnt know happen . lots of things had already happen . im just so blind to even notice such stuff huh ? or is i because im just kept in the dark ? i think thats happening . bleahs . i honestly dont mind . i've gotten used to it anyway . no one really cares huh ? bleahs . whatever .
i'm just an irritating pest in search of some company . even when i think i found one , im afraid that i will be a nuisance to them . they may say im not . but hell , who really knows what they're really thinking . sigh . i'm just so unsecure huh ? i don't know who i can really trust anymore . sigh .
things arent getting better anywhere . not in my social circle , love life , studies etc. every single thing just starts to worsen day by day , second by second. what's up with this ? is God playing a fool with me ? aww , give me a break . thats enough . hmm . i really do not know what to do now . everything seems to be worsening . i dunno who i can find for help ? haixx . there are options but , its like i dunno if i should ? better not take that risk . i dont wanna lose a friend .
to add on to my ' wonderful ' life . my damn bro never seems to understand . he just plays and plays non stop . cant he tell when my dad's gonna blow his top ? darn it . continue like this and i've got to say sayonara to my net . sigh . and just because he cant play, he complains to my dad that i used till super late in the night . and then , im gonna get it from him . wth . that's total bullshit .
aight .. enough of that problem talk . no one bothers anyway . better go now . before my dad comes in and rails at me for something that i did not do . bleahs . nights . school's on tmr and i didnt even have a good weekend break to sleep in or rest . sigh . what a life ..
~lost cause
Saturday, August 12, 2006
damn i hate BB nowadays . argh . all of them keep giving me lame excuses to not go parades or activities . what the hell . even if ms kang is dumb enough to believe , IM NOT . ugh . whatever . im lost for words . zzz .
alright . had some first aid course today at Red cross there . woots . funny like crap lahh . but also very siian . all learn before ready . diaoo . its's like go there waste time lor . im just going there because of the stupid cert which then enables me to get mybadge . zz . what's the use of a stupid cert which certifies me as a first aider ? come on man . i dont think i will need something like that . zz .
haix . guess tmr i have to go and meet some of the peeps to bring them to the red cross shit place again . zzz . wouldnt it be better if they went there themselves since i brought them there today ? taking a bus straight from my house is so much nearer then taking to tiong first . zz . waste of time and money ( although its a few cents ) . another 9-6 tmr . lala~ bleahs .
at this rate , im not gonna have any free day for myself . cant sleep in or anything . mon-friday got school and sat got BB . sunday is the only time but most of the sundays, i have to get up early for some things or another . crap . what a life im living . boo . but it isnt that bad huh ? who knows .
hmm . just notice some things today bout the peeps around me . lots of things that was suppose to be over but its back . maybe it didnt even ended in the first place huh ? no one tells me anything , so why bother ? lol . even the close friends i have since sec2 dont even see me as there anymore ? im just some other guy you see around in singapore huh ? man . i've gotten used to this already .
aight , i'll stop here for now . getting tired of the same old shit that i have . nights people .
~im all alone
alright . had some first aid course today at Red cross there . woots . funny like crap lahh . but also very siian . all learn before ready . diaoo . its's like go there waste time lor . im just going there because of the stupid cert which then enables me to get mybadge . zz . what's the use of a stupid cert which certifies me as a first aider ? come on man . i dont think i will need something like that . zz .
haix . guess tmr i have to go and meet some of the peeps to bring them to the red cross shit place again . zzz . wouldnt it be better if they went there themselves since i brought them there today ? taking a bus straight from my house is so much nearer then taking to tiong first . zz . waste of time and money ( although its a few cents ) . another 9-6 tmr . lala~ bleahs .
at this rate , im not gonna have any free day for myself . cant sleep in or anything . mon-friday got school and sat got BB . sunday is the only time but most of the sundays, i have to get up early for some things or another . crap . what a life im living . boo . but it isnt that bad huh ? who knows .
hmm . just notice some things today bout the peeps around me . lots of things that was suppose to be over but its back . maybe it didnt even ended in the first place huh ? no one tells me anything , so why bother ? lol . even the close friends i have since sec2 dont even see me as there anymore ? im just some other guy you see around in singapore huh ? man . i've gotten used to this already .
aight , i'll stop here for now . getting tired of the same old shit that i have . nights people .
~im all alone
Thursday, August 10, 2006
hmm . im mentally tired , im psychologically tired . i've lost my sense of priorities in life . ahh god damn it . why cant i set things straight ? why cant i set things right ? is this a never ending chain of trouble? i dunno . but oh god, SOS .
hmm . let's see . i've things yet to be done . and to hell with it , i dont feel like going school tmr . super boring . what can i do ? that's life man . study , study , study . anyone ever wondered what's life all about ? you study so hard to get to good sec school . then you study like mad to go JC / poly . then study like mad go university . after uni, find a good job . work like hell to earn money and then for what? earn to retire ? abit dumb right ? zzz . i just see no point in living . anyone share the same sentiments ? lol ..
okay . it's getting late and i have yet to touch my amaths hmework . gosh . why can i just freakin do it . argh . im just having my hands full doing other stuff huh ? bleahs . im really exhausted . like i said . not physically ..
God Damn It .
~save me please ?
hmm . let's see . i've things yet to be done . and to hell with it , i dont feel like going school tmr . super boring . what can i do ? that's life man . study , study , study . anyone ever wondered what's life all about ? you study so hard to get to good sec school . then you study like mad to go JC / poly . then study like mad go university . after uni, find a good job . work like hell to earn money and then for what? earn to retire ? abit dumb right ? zzz . i just see no point in living . anyone share the same sentiments ? lol ..
okay . it's getting late and i have yet to touch my amaths hmework . gosh . why can i just freakin do it . argh . im just having my hands full doing other stuff huh ? bleahs . im really exhausted . like i said . not physically ..
God Damn It .
~save me please ?