haix . my life really stinks . i dont have any real friends do I ? heard some things bahh . dunno if it's true ? hmm . the friends i have , some of them , they wanna like just to maybe err ... because i can help them in something ? or maybe when bored that time i will accompany them ? yeah .. that kind . whatever . im lonely to begin with .. doesnt really matter . the thing is , i cant stand the fact that im like treating like something . in a way which is to get it for an advantage . for example , i wanna be friends with xxx . whenever he asks me go play or whatever , i would go . why ? cos he can coach me in studies . so must go with xxx or not he/she will not teach me . haixx . i dont like that ? who can i pour out my sorrows to ? do i have anyone really reliable , trustworthy ? i guess noT ? i dunno . im so lost . studies , im getting worse , socially deproving . zzz . friends are already starting to badmouth me . lol . whatever bahhs . doesnt matter . im numbed by these stuff . it's all part of a fuc*ed up life . it's a package .



~my sorrows are bottled up in me