what do you really want me to do before i get my freedom ? is it really wrong ? argh . i cant take this shit anymore . you used to tell me ' get good results first then say lahh ' . im fine with it . i did well and so ? does what you say make any sense at all ? i merely just want that spare bit of time to do my own stuff . everyday is just study study study . after school , extra lessons or cca . even if i dont have such activities , go tiong makan then study or do homework . then i would just go play ball . cant i even play damn fuc*king ball ? whats wrong with that ? it is EXERCISE . you'd rather me hang out at some stupid arcades or LAN shops wasting my time away ? isn't it good that im doing something more construtive ? okay , maybe it's my fault that im home too lat e . but , at least you know what im doing and where i am . what's the point of studying so hard if that's the fuck*ing case ? you study like one mad fuc*er , trying so hard to get what you want . in the end , what you want is not what you're gonna get . you're just gonna get told off for doing something thats not really wrong . i dont see the point . you want me to come home ? but if im home , what can i do ? stare at the computer , spoil my eyes and waste time ? kinda like not constructive ? argh . whatever . so what if i get 2 full marks ? does it make a fuc*ing difference in my life ? okay . you may say that you do something not to get something in return but to do it because you wanna do it . but , my point is , can i get the freedom i want ? is it really that wrong for doing that ? even if i go out to study and sort of got too engrossed in studying and get home late i still get crap . what's wrong with STUDYING ? isn't that what you want ? argh . i dont see a point in my life . life itself is kinda meaningless to begin with . you fuc*ing study like mad , to get a good job . once you get a good job, you slog like one madass and whats the point ? zz . forget it . life in unfair . haix . im just like a bird stuck in the cage , never ever will i come out .


will things be better?
~trapped