The feeling of emptiness envelops me all of the sudden.
That cold, dark , merciless feeling. it hurts.
No matter how much pain you undergo,
No matter how much you tear,
it wont go away.
the feeling of loneliness stays..

sometimes you have the sudden urge to cry,
sometimes that sudden burst of laughter.
smiles and giggles lifts your spirits up almost instantly.
and yet, all this disappears in just a flash..
sadness flows in and overcome your out of the blue.
everything that you feel inside starts to leave you.
Empty. Cold. Pain.
these are the emotions that will walk you through your days..

but what if one day you could change your fate?
what if one day you're given paths to choose from ?
to decide between happines and sadness.
to choose to laugh or perhaps to cry.
what would your decision be ?
how long are you willing to wait for that day ?
will it be worth it ?

what if an angel appears before you.
promising to remove all your pain, sufferings,
all you tears and fears.
never again will you have to worry bout them again.
would you do it ?
would it be worth it ?
how long will you have to wait for the angel to descend ?
or rather, what if that day never arrives ?

perhaps, you've found that someone along the way.
to be your guardian, to be your angel.
someone whom you know you are willing to give your all to.
and yet, wish for nothing in return except for a smile on her face.
will you care for her ? cry with her ?
laugh with her and stand by her ?
say yes you will only if you really mean it.
say it cause you know you can keep to your promise..

sometimes you take a slow stroll and you stop to look at the sky.
you see her face right before your eyes.
the feeling inside, that of being blessed.
the wind starts blowing, a smile starts to emerge..
yet when it dies down, you heave a great sigh.
are you really worthy of her ?
do you really think you deserve her ?
these questions flash through your mind.
and somehow you know, deep down inside.
that whatever the answer you think it maybe, well, its all just a lie...

sometimes it hurts not knowing how much you care.
sometimes not knowing anything at all seems to be the best way out.
it hurts so bad when thing don't always work out the way it seems.
perhaps it's not destined.
perhaps fate does not allow us to be together.
what if we never knew each other at all ?
what if we are relocated to the ends of the Earth ?
will it allow us to let our hearts yearn for each other ?
or rather, will you even think of me at all.... ?

what if one day i happen to perish from the face of Earth.
will you cry cause you've lost a friend ?
or will you cry cause you'll never show how much you care ?
if the world were to come to an end real soon,
what will be the last few things you would wanna do ?
will i be part of it ?
or will i just be casted away into the bin and never to return again ?
will i even mean anything... ?

what if we were in a room and i start to walk out of the door.
will you let my back be the last thing you see ?
or will you pull me back and tell me how much i mean to you ?
perhaps i might just walk out of your life
never to look back, never to cry.
will you even seek for me at all?
or just accept fact and forget us all... ?

maybe one day we'll meet up again.
not with a smile, but with major heartaches.
but deep down inside, there's an urge to know.
how you felt about me then and perhaps even now.
was there a place left for me ?
what if i had just perservered on,
will there be a happy ending?
or just another heartbreaking moment.... ?

slowly but surely, my heart starts to wonder.
slowly but surely, it starts to beat faster.
is it due to your presence around me ?
or is it due to the the awkwardness we face?
sometimes i really wish to hold you in my arms.
to shield your from darkness,
to shield you from harm.
but much as i know that it's not gonna happen,
im always hoping for a small sign,
just a little sign that will give me the strength and resolve to pull through whatever...