lately, sleepless nights have been taking you over.
no matter how hard you try,
your eyes just refuses to close.
you lay still and silent on your bed.
staring at the cold blank ceiling.
thoughts starts filling up your head.
sad, joyful, remorse, happiness.
hurt, laughter, pain, contentment.
everything that happened thus far lays before you.
you take a look at how your life has been so far,
and realise, things have starting to piece out nicely.
you're amazed at how nice and perfect the pieces fit together.
" how could someone like me actually experience happiness ? "
that solemn thought runs through your mind.
you stop and pause for a moment,
and had the sudden realization.
" do i really derserve it ?"
" she definitely deserves much better than this "
Thats the final conclusion you had.

Before you know it, dawn is breaking.
climbing out of bed,
you think through bout the night before.
" is it too good to be through that she's actually right before me ? "
you leave your home and face the world with a mask,
a mask that hides what you really feel inside.
but whenever you see her, all these fades away.
nothing seems to be significant to you, nothing except her.
that feeling of being blessed.
love.
thats what it actually is.
but when you're all alone again,
you know you cant deceive yourself.
cause no matter what,
' she definitely deserves much better than this "