CHRISTINE CHIA. GO TO BED.

TAN WEI WEN!

zzzzzzz. i wanna BOX you lah.

stop reading this! im a happy boy. go and find the HOT BODY GIRL who loves PORK BANMIAN.

this is totally gonna be a random post in the middle of the night but oh wells. i like being random. haha ><


anyways, in life, there really isn't such thing as the BEST thing you can ever get. don't you all agree with it ? how sure are you that what you actually have is what you really much wanted ? what you normally have and feel contented with is normally the nxt best thing. man tends to look for alternatives to substitute what they cannot attain and then think that hey, this is actually better. but deep down inside, its actually not true. man just naturally force themselves to accept that as cold, hard concrete fact. thats just life.



things dont always work out the way they seems. people tend to think too much. or rather, some people tend to think too much into little minor things. minor little details and actions may seem very insignificant to one but they may mean alot to another. one must not underestimate how much these little things matter. for instance, a little insignificant action to one such as a lil card for one may actually be something really meaningful to the other party. or we look at things in another perspective. when one party does not do these particular minor stuffs to the other party, it actually affects them alot. so we shouldnt underestimate how much these things actually is to each and every individual person. it really MATTERS ALOT .


to some, taking a stroll by the beach, sitting down listening to music , looking at how the rain falls may be something that they can be very contented in doing. but it can actually be in fact, a waste of time to another. they prefer doing more vigorous stuffs as a form of enjoyment. but hey, every individual as different viewpoints in looking at things. its not right/fair to judge people just by that preference. man should learn to adapt.


jealousy is also a major part of a man's life. jealousy can cause friendships to sour, relationships to break apart, family bonds to vanish into thin air. jealousy can also cause people to turn from bad to good. however, jealousy can also cause ppl to work harder in a way that , they feel that they dont wanna lose out . it's a very subjective way to view it. but no matter waht, jealousy can always be kept in check and in place if one just knows how to. most of the time, jealousy occurs by the act of thinking to much into the little things that someone does. honestly, i feel that one shld just ignore or put on a mask to hide these feelings. block them away and shun them. perhaps this might make you feel better or something? well, it depends.


contentment is also something that people seek in life. man always finds things that makes them feel better, happier and more at ease. such forms of contenment varies from person to person. some prefers large scale items while a little thing can really make their day. its something that every person is always constantly for a look out for. perhaps tahts what life is ? perhaps this is all part of living ? or maybe its just the spur and motivation for us to carry on in life ? who knows .


okay. enough with this random rantings. im off.

lately, sleepless nights have been taking you over.
no matter how hard you try,
your eyes just refuses to close.
you lay still and silent on your bed.
staring at the cold blank ceiling.
thoughts starts filling up your head.
sad, joyful, remorse, happiness.
hurt, laughter, pain, contentment.
everything that happened thus far lays before you.
you take a look at how your life has been so far,
and realise, things have starting to piece out nicely.
you're amazed at how nice and perfect the pieces fit together.
" how could someone like me actually experience happiness ? "
that solemn thought runs through your mind.
you stop and pause for a moment,
and had the sudden realization.
" do i really derserve it ?"
" she definitely deserves much better than this "
Thats the final conclusion you had.

Before you know it, dawn is breaking.
climbing out of bed,
you think through bout the night before.
" is it too good to be through that she's actually right before me ? "
you leave your home and face the world with a mask,
a mask that hides what you really feel inside.
but whenever you see her, all these fades away.
nothing seems to be significant to you, nothing except her.
that feeling of being blessed.
love.
thats what it actually is.
but when you're all alone again,
you know you cant deceive yourself.
cause no matter what,
' she definitely deserves much better than this "

I Just Want You

There's something i gotta say to you,
But i'm so afraid of what you'll do.
ohh~

I'll just admit this to you now,
That i'm stuck on you like glue somehow.
ohh~

Don't wanna feel so cold inside,
I wanna feel the warmth that i feel with you all the time..
Surrounding me just like the wind.
Cause you're the one who makes me sing.

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I wanna go out with you tonight,
A picnic with candlelight.
I might just hold you tight.

Tell me you wanna be my queen,
If not it's okay, a princess seems just my type,
I promise i'll be there tonight.
I'll keep you warm in winter's white.
And in the summer, walks on beach sound nice.
I want you now to talk with on the phone for hours at a time.
Baby, i just want you to be mine all mine..

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I wanna be your valentine, your christmas wish, your pickup line.
I wanna be the one who knows about your friends and foes and the TV shows you love.
Look above the stars spell out your name with an exclamation point,
Cause at the end of the day, you're the one who makes me say..

Help me find myself like how i found you, ohh~
I need you so we can live happily too, ohh~
I Just Want You..
I Just Want You..

I Just Want You~

The feeling of emptiness envelops me all of the sudden.
That cold, dark , merciless feeling. it hurts.
No matter how much pain you undergo,
No matter how much you tear,
it wont go away.
the feeling of loneliness stays..

sometimes you have the sudden urge to cry,
sometimes that sudden burst of laughter.
smiles and giggles lifts your spirits up almost instantly.
and yet, all this disappears in just a flash..
sadness flows in and overcome your out of the blue.
everything that you feel inside starts to leave you.
Empty. Cold. Pain.
these are the emotions that will walk you through your days..

but what if one day you could change your fate?
what if one day you're given paths to choose from ?
to decide between happines and sadness.
to choose to laugh or perhaps to cry.
what would your decision be ?
how long are you willing to wait for that day ?
will it be worth it ?

what if an angel appears before you.
promising to remove all your pain, sufferings,
all you tears and fears.
never again will you have to worry bout them again.
would you do it ?
would it be worth it ?
how long will you have to wait for the angel to descend ?
or rather, what if that day never arrives ?

perhaps, you've found that someone along the way.
to be your guardian, to be your angel.
someone whom you know you are willing to give your all to.
and yet, wish for nothing in return except for a smile on her face.
will you care for her ? cry with her ?
laugh with her and stand by her ?
say yes you will only if you really mean it.
say it cause you know you can keep to your promise..

sometimes you take a slow stroll and you stop to look at the sky.
you see her face right before your eyes.
the feeling inside, that of being blessed.
the wind starts blowing, a smile starts to emerge..
yet when it dies down, you heave a great sigh.
are you really worthy of her ?
do you really think you deserve her ?
these questions flash through your mind.
and somehow you know, deep down inside.
that whatever the answer you think it maybe, well, its all just a lie...

sometimes it hurts not knowing how much you care.
sometimes not knowing anything at all seems to be the best way out.
it hurts so bad when thing don't always work out the way it seems.
perhaps it's not destined.
perhaps fate does not allow us to be together.
what if we never knew each other at all ?
what if we are relocated to the ends of the Earth ?
will it allow us to let our hearts yearn for each other ?
or rather, will you even think of me at all.... ?

what if one day i happen to perish from the face of Earth.
will you cry cause you've lost a friend ?
or will you cry cause you'll never show how much you care ?
if the world were to come to an end real soon,
what will be the last few things you would wanna do ?
will i be part of it ?
or will i just be casted away into the bin and never to return again ?
will i even mean anything... ?

what if we were in a room and i start to walk out of the door.
will you let my back be the last thing you see ?
or will you pull me back and tell me how much i mean to you ?
perhaps i might just walk out of your life
never to look back, never to cry.
will you even seek for me at all?
or just accept fact and forget us all... ?

maybe one day we'll meet up again.
not with a smile, but with major heartaches.
but deep down inside, there's an urge to know.
how you felt about me then and perhaps even now.
was there a place left for me ?
what if i had just perservered on,
will there be a happy ending?
or just another heartbreaking moment.... ?

slowly but surely, my heart starts to wonder.
slowly but surely, it starts to beat faster.
is it due to your presence around me ?
or is it due to the the awkwardness we face?
sometimes i really wish to hold you in my arms.
to shield your from darkness,
to shield you from harm.
but much as i know that it's not gonna happen,
im always hoping for a small sign,
just a little sign that will give me the strength and resolve to pull through whatever...